if u get there b4 i do.... love, mi ~foga~

foga SG · 2004-04-29T12:44:28+00:00

Right Here Waiting Richard Marx Oceans apart day after day And I slowly go insane I hear your voice on the line But it doesn't stop the pain If I see you n...

foga SG

this is a place where i can reveal my feelings i had for dawn.
no one understand, my friends they dun.
i'll give up my friends. dawn need them more than i do.
selfish? perhaps.

foga SG

~Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you~

Patrik SG

Crying or Very sad

foga SG

thanks pat , for dropping by.

for me, i've been hiding, tryin very hard not to thnk of her. but sometimes the feeling jus hit you when u least expected it. i had stop going to places where we used to go for the fear of bumpin into her. or perhaps seeing her and her new bf.

i used to think i was a very strong man. i used to think that i'm strong enough to withstand any hardships in life.

jus one knock, pat u know, i was hit very hard. i know deep down i would never be the same person again. and from that knock, i started to lose faith and confidence in myself. perhaps i was weak alll along.

foga SG

dawn, where are you. i love you so much but i know you have moved on and i should too. but why am i hurting so much. i dun really know how to move on.

..... perhaps i really can't....

i really love you dawn.

love,
me (foga)

S!ndy SG

hey, cheer up pal.. dun be so sad..
altho me dunno u, me see liao oso very upset..
Sad

S!ndy SG

u still haf to get on with your life no matter what.. how do you expect others not to give up on you when you have given up on yourself? haiii. love can bring happiness to someone's life and can also cause heart breaks.. cheer up.. Wink

sgboy2004 SG

>pat pat foga on shoulder<

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foga SG

thanks S!ndy,

true, i have already gave up on myself long long time ago.
ni zhu shen xian, bu neng zhi ba.

the harder i fight back, the deeper i fall back into this swamp.

i have lost everything the day i lost her.

no because she took everything away, but because i choose to give it up.

that's why now sgboy would understand why i'm always online these days. because i feel like a person when i'm here, in cyberspace, if not i'll be feeling like i'm lost in outerspace.

S!ndy SG

i felt really sorry for you.. cos i understand how u feel..
i noe it hurts.. but it takes time for heart to heal..
it's not easy.. but u mus overcome it..
it's really terrible when you lik someone but can't be with dat person.. it's lik.. so near yet so far..
it really hurts alot.. but u stil haf to move on with your life.. give yourself a chance.. n oso give others a chance..
i dunno how to console u.. cos i'm not very good with my words.. jus hope dat u'll feel better.. Wink
>hugs foga

foga SG

i love her so much.
i want to give her everything.
i dreamt of the day we'll get married and have kids of our own.
i dream of havin a family with dawn, a family to fall back to at the end of the day.

i know u meant well.
i've tried to open my heart but each time i try to get into a relationship, i find myself falling deeply into my own secluded world. i can't love anyone the way i love her. i can't give anyone else my heart cause dawn has taken mine away.

i cannot be selfish and disappoint anyone else, i can't hang on to this love i have for dawn for it would hurt her even more.
the only choice for mi is to treat myself badly. i can only disappoint myself.

foga SG

S!ndy SG

haii. maybe u're rite too.. but i do hope u won't treat yourself badly.. cos i dun tink it'll do u any good by treating yourself badly..
maybe u can try to do sth else to occupy yourself so that u won't think so much of this matter? Wink

foga SG

drinkin. well like the saying jie jui xiao chou, chou geng chou. but at least it give me the few hours of good rest. another way is to come here and find people to chat.

donjng SG

*pat pat*
do you need a shoulder to cry on?
Why dun you win her back?

foga SG

i onli need her's.
but since a long time ago, i'm learning to cry alone.
i've tried but, i'm no longer the one she loves.

donjng SG

then, its time to move on…

foga SG

i'm moving on.... but wat's the point when i am moving on but my heart stays at the same place where she left me.

donjng SG

Change yourself for the better, then, try winning her back!
Show her, that you have change for the better, not the worst!
Show her, that you have realised your folly, which made her leave!
Separation, doesn't mean anything, as long as both of you are still alive, nothing is impossible!

foga SG

i was a firm believer of that.
the reason why i can't is perhaps because i'm not the man she truely loves. deep down inside both of us we all know.
but i hope she doesn't know how much i love her.
perhaps i dun even love her at all.