They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing
that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and
may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will
be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know
where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the
greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost
touch with are some of the most important ones.
What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and
aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere but that they are as
confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close
to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking
for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the
bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing
and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you
realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and
what isn't.
One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh
and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and
scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and
cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past
is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do
but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do
such damage to you. Or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe
you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out
why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad
person.
One-night-stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting
wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go
through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk
with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to
make a decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for
yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now
you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to
it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as
hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
Send this to your friends...
maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their
state of confusion...
"I bend but I do not break."