No amout of bitching can get me out of this situation. All I can
do is pack up and leave. But this bloody packing process is
unbearable. It means to save enough to ensure I can last long in
another land. Soon.... i hope soon enough I can still have family
and kids. But I doubt so. But late also nevermind. Old and lonely
in another land is much better than old and lonely and desperate
and poor and being a liability and worrying and stressed and people
fucking my enforced savings up.
Some of you may not know. I observed a trend amongst my friends.
The rich, some having made hundreds of thousands by property
doesn't realise the pain living in this country. I know some of
them. They are actually very pro PAP. Some are fearful of change
and cont voting for the current ... I admit I am not rich and
having a painful time. I broke up a relationship because I
calculated there's no way a can fund a proper family. To provide
for education and stuffs like that. My friends don't have that
worry. They downgrade their 800K house in the event income stop
coming they got enough to bear the cost of a school attending kid.
Like what TV tells me, I have to shove myself with peanuts and try
to be happy with it for a while...
I feel your pain, and am saddened by your plight.I wish I could be
an immortal being with power and grant you your every wish.
However we must face reality, and truth can be painful. More so
when you had been bombarded by hollywood fairy tales, channel 8
happy endings every night, and feel like a loser for not achieving
what others who gets to live up to their fantasies, being rich,
have lovely wives, kids, beautiful homes, etc.
But you are not a loser, never is and never will be one till you
tell yourself you are one and behave like one. No one can look down
you, except yourself.
You are one us, Singaporeans. Who provided govt hospitals, with
medical care for you when you were born? Who provided you with
subsidized education and training facillities when you were were a
child? Who provided security for you so that you can sleep
peacefully at night without a worry? You want me to go on and list
it all down?
It was us.Your fellow citizens. You and your parents could neve
have afforded it on your own. We do it because we know that fact,
and it is thru our contributions and efforts that had given you the
opportunity to grow.
Why are you forsaking us now?
Please do not worry about failure to start a family here. It is
your lack of confidence that is hindering it. You are as capable as
any of us, and none of us had it easy in life. We had to work hard
to get where we are today. The trappings of wealth you see on us is
not by magic, but only thru sheer hardwork.
We are not machines, but of blood and flesh. Same as you. You
too, can be like us, but you must first have confidence in yourself
that you can do it.
It doesnt matter if you are a clerk, only $1,200 a mth. In time,
your salary will rise, and will be promoted. Most important of all
is to be responsible in your work, and employers value responsible
persons more than anyone else.
But if your mentality is to get a 9 to 5 job 5 day week, to hell
with the bosses, then you will either be stagnant or replaced in
time.
Widen your social circle, so that you may hear of other
opportunities for you to excel in, or use our ready funds to
upgrade yourself further. We will not leave you behind, for you are
one of us.
As you rise, so too will your income be, to provide for a
family. It will be love that holds you and your wife together, both
your characters complementing and supporting each other, and not
the dollars. Divorce stats had proven that fact - money alone is no
sure guarantee of a life long partnership.
When you have children, our society will not abandon you, so
long as you are responsible. If they show academic promise, they
will be supported by us all. But if they dont, it doesnt really
matter, for our society cannot have all of our young as scholars.
We will all be bored to tears. We would be thankful and support
them in sports achievements, talent, technical or any other
endeavor that can help enhance our society to the next level.
We Singaporeans are not rich. But combined with our intangible
and dollar contributions, we can make wonders, inspire an entire
world, help others in our society and leave no one behind.
We need you. To help others like you. It is you and I and others
that make up our country, to righfully inherit our birthright, not
by expecting life on a silver platter, but by making it better for
ourselves and the next generation as the previous generations had
made it for us, towards a better life and a meaningful sojourn on
Earth for all.
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