When I was in the middle of sec 2 I suddenly started
noticing this girl in my school. Funny how I didn't even know she
existed before then.
Anyway, I found her damn beautiful. Not really beautiful in a
physical way, but more on how she exudes this 'aura' of innocence.
Somehow, the more I looked at her, the more beautiful I found her
to be, and the more I could not forget her.
The problem is, I don't even really know her. Lol. I've never
talked to her before, never interacted with her in anyway before,
don't know her character or pretty much anything at all (except her
name)
I went very crazy over her for the next two years and after
(even after graduation, I couldn't really forget her), but I don't
even know how to start getting to know her and talk to her or
something. I was afraid of appearing as 'crazy' or a 'toad lusting
after a swan' if I approached her. I only dared look at her from
afar and just think of her.
After the O'levels, she created a friendster account and I
happened to chance across her account. I added her as friend and
got her msn account. Chatted for like 1 hr and that's it! She went
poly and I went JC and she has probably forgotten my existence by
now. Even has a boyfriend and stayed together for quite a long
time.
Looking back, I was really very stupid. I had nothing much to
loose by approaching her. Whatever 'face' I had thrown had I
approached her, it will not matter now. Conversely, had I succeed,
my life would be different now.
Frankly speaking though, I have never since meet another girl
who could affect me as much as her after since (4 years after
graduation), and we've never even talked before! LOL!
