I met this girl from university, she's 22, I'm 24. We study in
the same course but she's my senior by 1 semester.
The first time I saw her was in a club meeting where she was
selected to be a leader. I still remember then that I thought she
looked klutzy and has a bad sense of fashion. Add on rumors about
her being very fierce and demanding, I made a mental note to be
wary of her.
That was 6 months ago.
About a month later, I attended a gathering with some of club
mates and that's where we first got acquianted proper. Us club
mates talked about all kinds of stuff, from school to past
relationships to porn, in which she recommended us boys a webbie,
rather strongly. Here, I learnt that she's had 3 past
relationships. I never had one by the way.
I saw her a couple more times in our club room and had some
small talk, and she kept reminding me to visit the webbie she
recommended. I did and it turned out to be a shock site.
A couple of weeks after the gathering, we had a club dinner with
another group of club mates. I sat beside her and our conversation
started like this:
Me: You bitch!
Her: Huh?
Me: I visited (webbie).com.
Her: *Laughs*
And throughout the night, we started talking, clicked and she got
my MSN.
For the months to come, we would have small talk on MSN.
Exam time soon came, and one day she asked me if I wanted to
study with her. I took up the offer and this is when we exchanged
numbers. I studied together with her, but started to get worried
that she may be interested in me romantically.
During our studies together, I've learnt that behind her
exterior of a strong, confident, 'power girl' lies a girl that's
really kind, considerate and seems to believe that she's not 'hot'
. Put simply, she's really strong but she has her weaknesses.
This is where I started to feel something for her.
One night, she complained to me about how she's got to rush some
work and couldn't proceed cause her groupmates haven't sent over
yet. And there I was, having supper with my sis and her bf. With
encouragement from them, I brought over supper for her and tried to
get her to ease up a bit.
She asked me then 'What's the real reason for you coming
over?'
I couldn't reply her honestly, so I told her some crap about just
helping her relax.
When I went home, I MSN-ed her that I really just wanted to see her
and that I liked her. (I know, confession through MSN is a huge
no-no. T_T)
Anyway, her reply was 'So? What can I do about it?'
The next day, I tried to salvage it and settled for 'going back to
what is was', through MSN.
It was awkward for a while, trying to have our usual
conversation but with fresh memories of that fateful night. But
thanks to her maturity, we managed to put that past behind us.
Recently, she's got a job near my place. So every week, we would
meet up once for movie, dinner or both after her work. This time, I
am in love with her and I am sure she is aware of it.
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Couple of things of note (Maybe I'm just imagining things
here):
Whenever in company of people we know, she seem to be colder.
Once while in my company, our mutual friend called and she told him
that she's out with a friend. Although, once when I called her, she
mentioned the name of our friend that she's with.
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I don't know what to do now.
I don't know how she feels about me.
Please advice and feel free to ask any questions, I'll try to
answer.
