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Life in the Pressure Cooker
This is the perceptual diary of a typical Singaporean
teenager:
Enormous beads of perspiration trickled slowly down my now oily
forehead, onto my abnormally dry lips. My usually cool cheeks felt
flushed and hot. My tired eyes were moist and glistening, brimming
with tears, preparing to spill -- over this test that I was about
to flunk -- yet again
I licked my chapped lips, involuntarily
taking in the salty drops of moisture resting on them. My mouth
tasted funny, strange, and unfamiliar.
What should I do? I cant afford to fail! I asked myself in
desperation. The reply came almost immediately. The words Cheat
cheat
rang eerily in my ears.
My clammy hands trembled violently as I cautiously reached for the
History text under my untidy desk, keeping both my eyes steadily on
Miss George, who was still peacefully marking her students
assignments. Despite my nervousness, I located the page I was
searching for with just two experienced flips, then fought hard to
stop the shaking pen I was grasping in my cold sweaty palms.
The old school bell rang out loud and clear all of a sudden,
causing me to jump up with a start. The sudden movement jostled my
cluttered desk and my History text fell to the ground with a
clatter. Miss Andrews looked up instantaneously and with amazing
agility, got out of her seat and started towards me. My heart
thumped madly against my ribs as I avoided her staring eyes that
bore like gimlets into me. The tears I had succeeded in holding
back all this while spilled down my now scarlet cheeks and I began
to sob uncontrollably.
Argh! I could hardly stand it any longer! I had to have the
ultimate torture of silently watching the entire caning process
before actually experiencing it!
I gave another grimace and a groan of agony as the principal,
Mister Kew, swished his thin cane high up in the air. I shut my
eyes tight only to hear him bring it down again mercilessly and yet
another loud whack. My best buddy, Lees bloodcurdling scream of
pain and distress unsettled me -- he, too, had tried the same
tactic during his test and both of us, of course, ended up in the
same boat.
Kill me, his loud scream told me, Kill me and end my suffering
Hot tears welled up as before in my eyes and I desperately tried to
blink them back. My wobbly knees shook involuntarily, knocking
against each other and my normally wavy hair stood straight on
their ends. Please Lord! Save me and I promise I will believe this
time!
The rusty fire alarm sounded all of a sudden.
My heart had yet to fail me; it still pounded wildly as the
well-known school bully advanced menacingly step by step. I
squinted hard against the rude glare of the burning afternoon sun
peeping in through the shaft to focus better at Wilson who was
swaggering along, looking absolutely fit and muscular. Then I
looked down at myself, self-conscious all of a sudden; what thin
legs with knobbly knees I had, what a soft and flabby tummy I had,
what a scrawny little shrimp I was
Wilson sneered at me as if
reading my thoughts, Oh hi there, aint that dear old Copycat
Jeremy?
I could feel the warm blood gushing rapidly up my head; I backed
off, only to come to a dead end against the cool cubicle wall of
the schools boys toilet. What ought I to do? Could I possibly
slip in between his legs? I sighed inwardly, almost resigned to
fate as we came face to face. Wilson continued his childish taunts
one after another; while I could only look on at the tightening of
his handsome, well shaped jaws and listen to the cracking of his
knuckles as he clenched his powerful fists tight.
I felt a single hard punch in my weak stomach as Wilson gave a
sudden frown of deep concentration. I was practically sent flying
to the ground. I could hear the dull crunch of my new black rimmed
glasses as Wilson stomped on them. I could smell the strong
disinfectant on the toilet floor. My head reeled. I just managed to
suppress my moan as Wilson, warming up, had gained confidence and
began bashing my head against the clean and newly whitewashed
walls.
A lone teacher strolled leisurely down the deserted corridor
outside the toilet, oblivious.
They say a man would go through a flashback of his entire life just
moments before his death. And as I felt my mind breakdown, an
antique scroll with old Latin-like fonts was displayed, in a split
second, before my very eyes. When an unfamiliar voice read it out
loud and clear, I gradually came to realise that it was another one
of the essays I had been working on recently for the school
project. I was hard pressed for time and the assignment was long
overdue, there were too many things to be done and too little time
to complete them, in other words, I was all stressed up. I could
feel my sensitive eardrums vibrating as the words echoed softly
around me
The large spacious room stood cold, gloomy and dimly lit. The fire
was slowly but surely going out. The silence was overwhelming, so
much so that the occasional crackling of the dying flames and the
uneven scratching of pen against paper were magnified. The sudden
rush of cool air from the open window against Jenny's cheeks
brought about her goosebumps. The atmosphere was tense... and
eerie... Somewhere in the house, an old grandfather's clock chimed.
Once, twice, three times... twelve times. Jenny jumped violently
from the essay she had been working on. "It's only the clock," she
thought, as she returned to her ghost story only to spot, from the
corner of her eye, a ghostly figure near the door. Her spine
stiffened and her blood ran cold as she lifted her bent head to
take a better look at her unexpected visitor. A cloud of cold mist
surrounded him. He seemed translucent, Jenny could see and hear the
antique oak door creaking shut behind him. Outside in the dark
woods nearby, a full moon shone brightly above a howling wolf as a
mysterious figure lurked among the shadows of the tall pine
trees...
My usually clear vision was distinctly blurred, my sharp hearing
was now a mixture of deafening noises roaring in my ears and my
world was swirling ceaselessly around me as my brain screamed out
loud,
Argh
yes! The Singapore way of life IS a rat race
the Singapore
education system IS a pressure cooker! Certificates, degrees,
honours
the list goes on
is it ever ending? Do they ever cease
do we ever stop climbing? Is this what a fifteen year old ought to
be doing in the prime of youth? Is this what they call good
planning, preparing for one's old age? Am I really willing to slog
my way till the end? Is this the way I want to complete my life?
No, no, no, no, no, no! I will survive, somehow I will
but the
question is, do I really want to!
Yes, I was in the midst of the examinations, busy cramming an empty
mind, burning the midnight oil, just before I unintentionally fell
into a deep and troubled sleep
Name: Magdalene
Age: 15