Okok. some update. Sry i didn't reply.
Ok. before this, some BG info (i tot this wasn't important).
like 1 day after knowing her right, we somehow arrange a date to
watch movie (and it's a movie we have both watched but we wanted to
watch it again). and then on that day was like a sunday, so
everything was fine until one of her friends kept psycho-ing her to
lie to me and to play me out so tt she cud accompany her. then
suddenly she like cancelled the whole thing as she pressurized by
friend? and she actually told me that her mum forced her to go
somewhere. I knew something was wrong but i decided to just trust
her..futhurmore, it was lik the 1st day we know each other...
then till now ive been talking to her for like non-stop many days
and each time lasting like 2-3 hours each. (around 1 week+ so far).
n she revealed the truth to me (about her friend asking her to
lie), and she said she feel very bad about it. (i cud tell it in
her voice..). then she told me she was like angry wif her
friend...and talked some bad stuff about her...
and today (also a sunday), at church, she still like hang out with
her after sunday sch ends. and after tt when we talk on the phone
she said she is "too shy" to say hi to me because there were other
guys around me...ok, tt i can accept. she said she got to "act not
angry" wif her friend.
tonight, (the last time i talked to her, infact, just put down the
phone). the conversation got abit awkward. I was being quite
insensitive and i went on ranting about how bitter i felt that day
when she played me out. and then she was like almost going to cry.
when i sensed i was like "too much" alrdy i decided to stop myself
and like try to like say sorry. then she went ' ok la it's my fault
my fault ', non-stop and i think she really really felt very very
bad..
by the end of the convo, i managed to get her cheerful self back.
actually, i made very strong hints like telling her i wanna grow
some trees in the garden (my roof garden actually), so that when i
talk to her next time i got some greenery to look at. and stuff
like stars and how romantic they are. i also said somethings like
"sorry, lets not care about whose fault izzit, as long as you're
cheerful again, im happy already". seriously, i don't know whats
wif me using all these "you..you...you" phrases tonight.. i also
told her many stories about my travel in europe and stuff like OBS,
and by the end of the night she was like quite happy and not sad
anymore. was i successful in doing so?
she was also very reluctent to put down the phone. I wanted to
prematurely end the convo (before the scheduled time) and then she
"why-ed" me. normally people wud just "ok-ok lor" and then she why
me. it was like so out-of-the blue n i was already prepared to off
the phone. and then...we talked till she fall asleep and then she
still called back and ask me..."huh what happen?". and then i told
her to go n sleep because she has school tmr...and all that. dan we
bid each other gd nite and now im here typing this...
To me, it's even weird that i say such things. I even said "why are
we like quarrelling when we just know each other for 1 week plus?
quarrels should be happening like in months to come "...well, that
was quite lame i guess. i was thinking like, if she doesn't care
about me, she wouldn't even feel sad in the first place? perhaps
she was really seriously regretting what she had done..
My feelings, im confused actually. I feel like telling her " i like
you, but i don't want to chase you. i just want to talk to you and
ill be happy " or something along those lines. this is what i
really feel...
overall 2night, it was a satisfactory happy ending (good it didn't
end in the middle of our silence, it wud be strange)....
what u guys think? r there actually romance in this? or just pure
pure..friendship..? im really stuck...confused...zzz
