Part 3
I had lunch with Tye, we talk about the conversation with FlyNDance
this morning.
"You moron. Told her you are not romantic, you siao ah? You have
disgraced me man. How can you make such a big mistake?"
"....I...I..."
Tye grabbed a chicken wing with chopstick, and I can see the
trembling of the hand and the wing.
"There are 3 'don'ts' in chasing a girl...
One, don't forget to be romantic;
Two, don't be too honest;
Three, don't be too stingy on the sugar in our speech.
In mandarin, we say 'nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai', you should
know this."
"This I know, but it has been a controversial topic over centuries.
Women aren't really that, cheap"
"So why would they only falls for 'bad guys' like me?"
"That's because 'bad guys' are usually romantic. Those 'nice guys'
are usually, dumdums. So she would rather choose a romantic 'bad
guy' rather than any of those dumdums. In maths we call this
2C1, understand? dumdum."
Oh, Tye is talking about maths! Now I understand. No wonder I have
always been left on the shelf.
"In another words, gals wouldn't mind if you are not tall...
if you are not handsome...
they can bear with your inconsiderate acts...
can forget your stupidity...
But they can never forgive if you are not romantic..."
"Come on, this is so exaggerating."
"Hey, most women have a 'knot' for romance, just like most men have
a 'knot' for virginity. To women they just can't understand how
precious the thin layer of membrane is to men. Same thing, men
can't imagine how important women treats romance."
"This is bullshit! How come I've never heard of that."
"The key word is 'knot', if you can untie it, fine. But how many
had actually succeeded in that. practically none."
"ok, fine. now I've done it. So what should I do to remedy the
situation?"
"Face it. You are hopeless already."
I promise you I'll have a drink with you when you and her are
over."
You SONOFABITCH.
Part 4
Midnight. I am trying to concentrate on my physics notes...
F=ma, v=u+at...
It's really a wonder that nature can be explained by just a few
formulas and equations, and this we call science.
Then why is astrology and palmistry being labeled as superstitions?
Science should only be one of the ways to explain truth, what can't
be explained by science, it doesn't necessary mean that it's
unreal....
Close to 1 am. Since I can't get anything into my head, I shall try
my luck on net then, maybe she is there.
"Slorr, you here."
"Finally, good night to you 
"
'FINALLY'? Strange word to use it here. What is she doing here
at
this hour? Must be feeling down again.
"Yes, it is fate that brought me to you at this moment."
I am trying very hard to convince her that I am a bit
romantic.
"Slorr, nothing to do with fate. I waited for you for one
hour
liaoz..."
"Sure or not? For what?"
"Talk to you mah or else I can't sleep."
"You sick is it? Go see doctor lah "
"Slorr, let's continue our topic.
What do you think of relationships that began from the
internet?"
Oh my god, how should I answer her now?
"It's... it's very... romantic..."
Indeed I am not a good liar, even my words are shaking now.
"Slorr, you bluffing. You not romantic one mah."
GAME OVER. I am finished! No choice but to drink with Tye.
"Slorr, you lagging? Or just daoing me?"
"No, I am wondering why is the sky so chio tonight?"
"No no no. Don't try to shift the topic, Slorr."
Sigh. I give up. I asked for it myself.
"Actually I think relationships started from cyberspace is
considered as ROMANTIC, cos romance gives people an impression of
unreal, and cyberspace is virtual."
"Slorr, that's interesting."
"Surfers keep a safe distance from each other and usually 3 types
of people are produced in this way.
The first type....
The first type being those who present themselves on net with their
'secondary personality'. Usually all of us consists of multiple
personalities, and in everyday life, what we present to the world
is the 'primary personality', with the secondary one being
suppressed, or maybe we don't even realised this other trait of us
deep inside. So internet is the place where this side of us is
revealed, both intentionally or without conscious knowledge."
"Is it true? What about 2nd type?"
"The 2nd type are those who will transform themselves into the kind
of man/woman he/she would want to be. There's bound to be 1 or 2
characteristics that you particularly admire, too bad, sometimes
these characteristics are just couldn't be found in you. Cyberspace
is the perfect location for this transformation to occur."
"Slorr, you blowing cow is it? Type 3 leh?"
"I am not blowing cow, I read it from an article of TIMES magazine!
Type 3 will be those who transform themselves into characters which
are impossible for them to become in real life.
For example, if you are a girl, you may act as a man on net. You
may even become BATMAN or SUPERMAN if you want."
"Hmmh.. That's pretty amazing."
"The first type is the 'faithful' type, 'cos its his own
personality that is being presented on net. The 2nd type is the
'foolish' type, 'cos he knows only how to admire others, always
forgets his own strong points. The 3rd type is the 'pathetic' type,
'cos he is wishing 4 some
impossible."
"Slorr, then you belong to what type? Me leh?"
"I don't wish to believe you are type 3, 'cos I am not.
I crossed the possibility of type 1 'cos its too common, because I
think you are special. Being able to attract you, I think I am at
least a bit special. So we belong to type 2."
"Type 2, then who you wish to become? Slorr.."
I certainly would like to become a person like Tye, humorous,
romantic and eloquent, 'cos these are what I am lacking of.
"Slorr, what about me?"
"you? I don't know. you want to FLY and DANCE, probably that means
you wish to fully enjoy your youth while you can. But if this is
somethng you wish yet you can't achieve, then there's 2
possibilities:
1, you are aging, 2, you are leaving the world."
I think I said something wrong, cos she didn't sent me anymore
message after this. I began to blame myself for being so perverted,
why talk about these things?
I should have discussed with her whether ZOE or FANN, who should be
the queen of Caldecott Hill. Damn that TIMES magazine, poison my
mind. Maybe she's lagging. so I waited... and waited. Girl its just
a few minutes, but it felt like several hours. I want to
apologize,but do not know how to start. until she sent me this
message:
"Slorr... let's meet..."
Without hesitation, I used the hand that I had used it over 18
years to wipe my ass, typed 'O-K'.
I am supposed to meet FlyNDance tonight , 8pm, at the entrance of
McDonalds, the one beside YMCA. That's the best time and place to
meet a girl you have never met before, according to Tye, 'cos they
would have taken their dinner by that time which means we can
simply go inside the Mac and have some fries and coke. She will be
wearing a whole set of coffee theme attire and I will be wearing my
usual blues, this is our way of identification. She told me she is
not those 'cute gals' I may think she is, I said never mind, I am
not Brad Pitt either. then she told me she has long ago given up on
this hope already.
Part 5
"Slorr, you are early."
While I was idling, a girl tapped my shoulders from my back.
Although I was already mentally prepared for anything that's going
to appear in front of me, I was still astonished by this girl who
stood in front of me now.
If not for the coffee theme and that 'Slorr', I would think she is
only asking for directions. She is one of those 'chio bu' that can
only be found on Orchard Road, which I usually see while crossing
the road. Maybe I suffered from a serious concussion due to the
heavy blow, my mind was extraordinarily calm.
"Had your dinner right? I think we shall go inside the Mac
first.You are pretty smart huh? A good way to save money
indeed."
AIYA! She knows me so well, I can only give her an innocent smile
back.
Since she's so pretty, I ordered 2 LARGE cokes, and even ordered
TWO packets of fries.
"This time you treat, next time I'll let you treat."
I am not falling for that, miss. But I am glad she mentioned 'next
time'.
"Slorr, are you disappointed when you saw me just now?"
DISSAPPOINTED? Are you drunk?
"Why do you think I will be disappointed then?"
"Cos I told you I am not cute mah, so you must be quite
disappointed when you saw me"
She is making zero-sense, but I know she is just trying to hint
that she's actually cute.
"Then why did you have to lie that you are not cute?"
"Slorr. I said I am not cute. I didn't say I am not pretty."
#$%$##%^*&%[email protected]!!!
"But you are also quite decent looking what it's not like what you
described to me too."
'DECENT'? A very vague word. To many gals, decent=boring. One good
thing is that she didn't lie to me about the fact that she is
keeping long hair. She also has a fair complexion which reminds me
of HL milk I take almost everyday. It is now only that I found out
she is from ACJC, but had spent her first 3 mths in AJ.
Sitting in front of each other, we talk about many things. From her
obsession with coffee to my hobby of watching movies. BTW, she had
completely shook off my misconception of 'if she is pretty, she is
brainless'. She appears to be an attractive girl, both physically
and character wise, talking, smiling to me, occasionally being a
little sarcastic and nasty.
It's like a dream.
We left the Mac at around 10 pm. Since it's still early, I decided
to send her home and fortunately, it's just Ang Mo Kio, two MRT
stops from mine. I would have second thoughts if she's staying at
Pasir Ris.
"Slorr, congratulations! You are officially permitted to date me
from now on."
She said this before the lift door closed. Back at home, I realized
that I hadn't asked for her real name,
maybe it's the influence of that stupid Tye.
Tye told me :
Never ask a pretty girl her name the first time you meet her, cos
there are already too many wolves out there dying to know, so she
will be more interested in you if you act bochap. Then why didn't
she ask for mine? Don't tell me there's a female version of Tye
telling her not to?
It's again 1 am. Time to meet her in ajcrr.
"Hi! Slorr you tired?"
Of course I am tired after all the surprises she presented me, I
would go straight for my bed if not for her. But why is she here
also?. Isn't she tired too?
"Long time no see how are you?"
"Slorr you siao ah? 2 hours only leh... miss me?"
"A)Yes B)Of Course C)Abuden D)Dying to see you E)All of
above.
Answer is E."
";."
Seems like she is really tired, even the smiling face are yawning
to me right now.
"You wanna go for a movie tomorrow?"
Maybe I should ask her now, while she is half asleep, hoping that
she will blur-blurly click 'OK'.
"Should be no problem. What show?."
HOOOOORAY!!. I am cheering for her fatigue.
"We decide what show tomorrow. Anyway what's important is watch
with who. Not the show."
Tye's favourite line, I am just borrowing it.
";."
"You should go sleep now lah."
"Wait one little while. You haven't tell me you tired or
not?"
"Ok lah, A bit. You leh?"
"I am exhausted but have to say good night to you first. Slorr, if
not I can't sleep."
"me too."
I can't believe I am doing this SILLY business right now.
"Ok I tell you what I count 1,2,3. Then we log off together."
"ok good night Slorr."
"Same to you"
"1..."
"2..."
"3..."
Part 6
I never talk whenever I am inside a cinema, and now is the best
time for my mouth to rest, so I spent the following 3 hours to
admire this much-talked-about movie of the century, Titanic. I am
not a romantic person, so it's perfectly understandable if I can't
really appreciate this motion picture fully, except for all those
stunning special effects. but something struck me when Jack said to
Rose before he sank into the deep.....
"Rose, listen to me... listen.... winning that ticket was the best
thing that had happened to me... it brought me to you....and I am
thankful, Rose....I am thankful...."
Suddenly I felt much fortunate than Jack, because I don't have to
risk my life to board Titanic, all I have to do is to switch on my
PC every night. But he's one lucky guy too, because he knows how to
draw, and
just look at how slowly he was drawing Rose, that made me blame
myself for the lack of this talent. But to her, this movie wasn't
just about drawings or special effects. I noticed that packet of
tissue paper she was holding in her hand. and just when Rose
said:
"I promise... I will never let go, Jack... i'll never let
go.."
She opened up her sling bag and here comes the reserve
handkerchief. Damn that Celine Dion, why on earth did she had to
sing that "MY HEART WILL GO ON" at the end of the show, for all the
female species inside the theater, its like "MY TEARS WILL ALSO GO
ON".
"Ok, movie ended. Let's go."
I stood up, speak to her gently, worried that every single word I
breathe out might just crush onto her, and kill her. she continued
to sit on the position, looked at me with her beautiful eyes that
just came back from a swim.
After a while, she said "Slorr, movie ended, but life goes on. Am I
right?"
I nodded my head. But I just wished somebody might give me some
clue of what she was saying. Finally we managed to leave Orchard
Cineplex, since its still early, we decided to take a walk down the
street.
Along the way, she seems unusually quiet. So I guess Tye was right
about the 'TITANIC FLU', he said that gals often got so mentally
distressed after watching this show, and it's the best time to
launch an emotional attack on her, that's why Tye had watch Titanic
for over 5 times roughly. Her eyes were focused on the path or the
crowds but I know her mind was still left on Titanic, sinking with
her, waiting for somebody to pull her up.
I just kept my mouth shut. I know I am not a good swimmer. We
walked to Plaza Singapura. Suddenly she stopped in front of a
Christian Dior counter.
"Slorr, have you read a novel called 'Fragrance'?"
"Err..nope. Why do you ask?"
"Look at this 'DOLCE VITA' from Christian Dior. It's what the guy
bought for her girlfriend in the story on her birthday. And he told
her 'DOLCE VITA' is French, meaning 'SWEET TIMES'"
She pointed to a bottle of perfume at the counter, but I was
more
interested at the price tag around the neck of the bottle.
"Oh... is it?"
"Slorr, then do you consider today as 'sweet times'?"
"At first I do, but some points are deducted since you started
crying."
"That means it can only be considered a little bit sweet, I'll buy
the small bottle then."
I insisted to pay for the perfume as her birthday present from me
since I know her birthday is coming soon, this kind of saves me a
lot of trouble of finding a present for her. Luckily it's just
perfume, or I would have to pawn my underwear if that guy in the
story gives her girlfriend diamond or gold bar.
"Are you hungry? Wanna sit down and have something?"
"I don't have appetite, what about you?"
"You eat, I eat..."
Her eyes are red again. I am such a fool. Finally got away from the
noisy crowd at the MRT station, walking on one of the steets of AMK
Ave 6. Contrastingly, it's so quiet now that I even can hear the
rhythm of her heartbeat."
"Slorr, do you know what's the correct way of applying
perfume?"
I shook my head. In fact, I had never used a perfume or cologne
before, medicated oil maybe.
"First you apply some behind your ears, then your neck and wrists.
After that spray some onto the air, then walk through it."
"Sure or not?"
"In that case this little bottle won't even be able to last you for
3 days"
"Slorr, shall we try?"
"We? You go ahead. I am a MAN."
She opened up that DOLCE VITA, behind her ears, neck then the wrist
she applied some and she really did spray some onto the air!!
WABIANGZ!! Expensive leh! Finally she stretched out her hands,
facing up like enjoying the raindrops falling on her face.
"Hahaha...."
"Slorr, this is so fun! Now its your turn."
She went through the same procedures with me and I can feel the
coldness of her fingers. maybe it's the perfume, I guess.
"Slorr, get ready, I am going to spray!!"
I imitated her. Face up and walked through my first perfume
rain.
"Slorr let's have another round!!"
" WHAT!! Serious?"
My money isn't easy to come by leh!! before I can collect the
broken pieces of my heart, she had walked through her second round.
She was even more excited this time, hoping around, like her
nickname. A flying and dancing butterfly. late night of AMK, the
streets smells unusually nicer right now. until we finished the
whole of that DOLCE VITA.
"DOLCE VITA is exhausted."
"I guess this sweet time shall end now too. Slorr, I'll go up now.
Tonight 1 am, I won't be online, and you are not to do so
too."
"Huh? But why?"
"Go online at 12pm tomorrow. You will know.... Remember, only
12pm..."
She turned and walked into the lift. At the same time, I saw an
obvious pink patch behind her neck, which is visible only now
because she tied her hair.
I looked up towards her window on the 4th floor from below, but it
never light up.
Part 7
I switched off the light in my room. Engulfed in the absolute
darkness. I wished to have the same kind of feeling as her right
now. I realised in complete darkness, the easiest mood one
gets...is loneliness. she must be lonely right now, half
asleep.
I almost can see a beautiful butterfly, turning to ashes
amidst
the sea of flame. And that patch behind her neck.. from pink
it
became red. Then burgundy. Slowly, it swallowed me was it the
cause
of that can of beer just now?
Suddenly I felt cold and shaky. And that coolness seemed to
have
come straight from my heart, the rate of my heartbeat was an
exponential function of time as it got closer to 1 am.
USE A DIFFERENT NICK!!
checked ..
She isn't there, my heart was beating fast. But the
temperature
remained below healthy level....
[email protected]~=-
Finally its 12 pm, excited as I was, logged on the net, yet
there
was still no sign of FlyNDance. But there's a mail from her :
Dear slorr,
At first I thought it will be easier for me to settle down in
the darkness... recollecting memories we have shared... but all
I
felt was loneliness...... can you feel it too?...
I still can't change the habit of logging on at 1am... so I
used
a different nick to sneak into AJCRR... you don't blame me
right?...
... you werent there... should I feel glad for
your
obidience?.... you said both of us belonged to TYPE 2... the
foolish type...maybe you are right!... 'cos I really do
admire
those who dares to fight for their desires... I stroke my
hair
gently when you said that I am leaving the world... and a few
strands of hair fell..... No!... doctor told me its not a
terminal
disease... and doctor aren't supposed to lie!!?... I still can
live
like a normal person... BUT CAN I?..
FlyNDance... is it really something I wont be able to do?...
After the first meeting with you at Mac... I started to
realise
that you are not only a virtual being living in the
cyberspace...
in reality you are strong, gentle and sensitive.... I can feel
the
defense Wall of my heart is slowly breaking apart.... I am
defeated... I tied my hair today.. 'cos my fren told me that I
look
more attractive this way...
I want you to remember my face as it is today... 'cos after
today... everything may change.... But why didn't you ask for
my
real name? ..thats why I never asked for urs...
I am a girl mah..... do you realised how I wish to
have
something more than a nick to take along with me? ...Slorr...
thank
you for the DOLCE VITA... finally got a taste of what sweet
times
are like... but I am really sorry..... I just couldnt bear to
say
goodbyz.....
since it started from a mail.... it should end with a mail
too.... Its been 3 months and 2 days since the very first
mail...
not a very long time but it isn't short either.... our story
began
from me... and I will end it..
Maybe its what you said... 'internet is fast and convenient,
but
it isn't perfect'.... I can send you my thoughts right away...
but
not my tears... Its about 5.30am now.... time to go.... by the
time
you receive this mail... I would be trying to settle down
somewhere
else.... I don't know....Good Bye.
With lotsa love,
FlyNDance
After reading her mail, I felt as if I had just experienced a
roller-coaster ride which almost derailed. she had shown me
the
other side of her, soft and sensitive.
For a couple of months, I was trying to hypnotise myself, to
suppress my feelings whenever I started to think about her
again.
Perpetually I was telling myself, she is just one virtual
character
that flys and dance in the net, but never in the real world.
I became a fugitive, escaping from my PC, escaping from the
internet and anythng that has to do wih coffee. Hide myself
behind
the piles of lecture notes, behind the crowd of people, trying
to
get rid of this thought of missing something in life.
But I failed. I found out that its not that I don't miss her,
its
just that I had forgotten the passion that always comes along
when
you are having something hanging on your mind all the time.
its
like I cannot not breathe, its just that I had forgotten the
fact
that I have been breathing in and out for the past 19 years.
I can hold my breath for a while, but not forever.
I have to find her.
Part 8
"Err... I am looking for ... er..FlyNDance...."
"HUH??..."
'Huh', this is the exact word I was expecting from her.
She seems to be FlyNDance's elder sister, 20++, looked quite
a
beauty too even without any makeup. But of course, still can't
be
compared with her. I explained to her my purpose for knocking
on
the door and told her that I am no stalker whom she might think
I
am.
Surprisingly when I told her my disgusting nick, Slorr, she
appeared to be rather excited and quickly she scribbled
something
on a small piece of paper and handed it to me.
"You should go and see her. SGH, Room 3-425."
[email protected]~=-
This is the first time I've ever stepped into the Singapore
General Hospital. It's a dust-free space, everything looked
so
clean, tidy and arranged.
But I don't like the feeling it gave me... I entered room
3-425,
she was there, in a deep sleep. I stood by her, watching.
Her hair was still as long as before, laying across the soft,
white pillow...
Her face looked roundish now, I know it's the side-effect of
the
medicine. And the pinkish-red patch that was on her neck had
spread
to her face appearing in a shape of a butterfly.
Nevertheless, she was still the most beautiful butterfly I've
ever seen.
Her eyelashes twitched slightly, she must be dreaming, what's
that in her dream?
McDonald's fries and coke? Sinking Titanic? Or the rain at
AMK
Ave 6? The room was getting darker as the clock approaches
6pm.
I wanted to switch on the light. I hate to see her lying
lonely
under the shadow of a patient's room.
But I am worried that her dreams might be disturbed by the
sudden
light rays. While I was in a dilemma, her eyes opened slowly.
Her
eyes were wide on me, then she turned away suddenly.
I can only see her back at this moment. She lost weight. After
a
long time, she turned to face me again, rubbed her eyes and
smiled....
"Slorr, you are here!"
"Yes, nice weather today, isn't it?"
"Ya lor, sky also very chio today? Right? Heehee.."
SKY VERY CHIO...
I can still remember this was the conversation we had in one
of
our AJCRR meetings."
But she didn't realized that it's raining today.
"Slorr, why are you standing there. Sit down."
Thanks for reminding me. I just found out that my legs were
numbed due to the several hours of standing.
"Slorr, you lost weight."
ME? I thought I should be the one who's telling this to her!?
"Slorr, you hungry? Had your lunch? Food here isn't so good.
That's why patients like me always slim down a bit. Apart
from
that. It's quite ok. But sometimes I feel really bored without a
PC
here to talk to you.."
"Slorr, how's your mid-year? Sure did very well right?"
WAIT A MINUTE! You are the one who's lying on bed right now
not
me! Yet, I had nothing to ask her actually.
Because I was there to see her, not to find out the answers
to
those questions. Maybe now its the time for me to utter some
touching lines like whats in the case of a movie.
But I am not a Romantic person... moreover...
Movies are fiction.
Life isn't.
[email protected]~=-
I just wished that she could leave this place as soon as
possible
back to AMK Ave 6, back to ACJC, back to where she belonged. And
I
promised she won't be alone anymore, because I will always be
there.
After a while, her mum was here to see her. Around the age of
50,
slightly overweight. Other than the cheerful smile, she
didn't
really remind me of FlyNDance.
"Err, I think i've gotta go now. Bye bye auntie."
"You....You..."
She sat up straight in a sudden, like if she'd experienced a
tremendous shock.
"I'll be here again tomorrow.. and the day after tomorrow...
until you leave this place..."
Before I went back home, I went to Plaza Singapura again to
buy
that Christian Dior Dolce Vita... and I've got the biggest
bottle
this time, that she can even swim in it.
I try not to close my eyes that night, I want to go to her as
soon as the first sun ray shoots into my room....
Part 9
"Slorr.. you are here.. i've been waiting for you for a long
time..."
"Had a good night's rest?..."
"Oh... I didn't allow myself to fall into a deep sleep because
I
know you won't wake me up when your here."
"Then you should take a rest now."
"Err, since you are here already, I don't think I can..."
I gave her the Dolce Vita, and we'd agreed that we would dance
in
the rain in front of SGH main entrance the day she's
discharged.
I dare not look straight at her, because there's a butterfly
on
her face. It was only last night before I leave SGH that I
found
out she's suffering from an illness called ERYSIPELAS. What
the
clergymen would term the BUTTERFLY DISEASE...
But what I like is the coffee butterfly that is able to dance
around freely, not that pinkish-red butterfly that settled on
her
pale complexion. Moreover, whats a butterfly if it can't fly?
"Slorr, why are you looking at me and not talking?"
I don't know, because I noticed that she's getting weaker
physically. I had a bad feeling about this.
"Slorr, I am thirsty, can you get me a drink?"
I am not leaving her at this moment. I can still remember a
movie
about this guy who went all the way to get red bean soup for
his
girlfriend who's on sickbed and to find her lying silently on
the
white bedsheet when he came back... never to wake up again...
"Are you trying to get rid of me, like what's in that movie?"
"Slorr, movie is movie, life is life..."
MOVIE? LIFE?....
"But I thought you just had a drink? Anyway, so what can I
get
for you?"
"Ultimate Ice Blended!!"
This is a hospital leh!! Did she think I can find Coffee Bean
everywhere on this island? Like McDonalds, what's more coffee
wasn't suitable for her at that time.
"Err... coffee isn't good for health, order something else,
ok?
"So you know coffee isn't good for the body too. Then you
should
cut down on your intake also, ok?"
I saw her smile appearing and there's a shine in her eyes. I
realised that shes just trying to tell me not to drink too
much
coffee in the future.
My heart seemed to have suffered from a heavy blow.
This is not good. A taste of pH7 has started to fill my nose.
If
this is not going to stop, tears might be the next thing that
appears in front of her.
I recalled the chapter on reservoir and dam in physics
textbook.
Quickly applied the knowledge on myself. Even if it's just a
few
droplets.
"Ok, I promise, I'll try my best."
"And try to sleep earlier in the future and don't skip
breakfast..."
"It'ss important to you and don't be too obsessed with blue.
It
makes you look troubled and....."
This didn't sound good. It's like giving the final
instructions
before she... I can't bear to let her continue.
"Ok ok, I'll go get you a drink right away."
"Slorr, is the machine far away? If it is, then its ok, I
don't
want it anymore."
From my mental calculation, men would take 67 steps while
women
would take 85 steps to reach the vending machine right at
that
corner. Plus the time taken to purchase, average would take a
total
of 1.8 to 2.1 minutes. Not very far.
"Quite near."
"Slorr, come back quick. I don't want to be alone for too
long...
I hate that feeling."
I didn't answer her. I just increased my pace....
Part 10
"Eh... its late already... go to sleep..", my mum was nagging
at
me again.
"Ok ok.... 10 more minutes..."
Until today, FlyNDance had left for more than 2 mths.
I still logged on at 1 am every night, but onto channel
DOLCE-VITA which was created by myself, with slorr and
FlyNDance
being the only 2 nicks inside, for 10 minutes.
Although she won't be able to fly and dance in real life
anymore,
but I still wish that she could continue to do so in the
virtual
world.
Even Tye has given up on me...
"She's gone, why are you still doing this? For what?!!"
Yet, even if that's the case, I can't allow her soul to be
left
at the corner of loneliness. Because she said she hated the
feeling
of being alone....
I still remember there was a heavy downpour on that day. When
I
reached SGH, they told me... A coffee butterfly flew away from
her
room at around 1 am last night....
After that... I can't remember...
I just knew that I stood at the bus-stop for a whole day and
I
was all wet because of the rain. even my face.
I've been trying hard not to think of her over these 2
months.
I've been hoping that her face won't appear in my mind every
moment
that I breathe, but it's like hoping that the sky isn't blue;
the
grass isn't green; the stars do not twinkle at night...
Basically, I was hoping for something impossible to happen. I
can't believe that I am of Type 2, even in real life.
Did I cry?.. NO WAY!..
I said it before, I am not a romantic person, and this may be
due
to the deficiency in the hormones that constitutes emotions.
Whenever I had the feeling of pH7, I'll browse through those
'FWDS:jokes...' Attention will then be shifted by those
dim-wit,
low-class jokes...
So now everything is back to the way it was before I met her
9
mths ago.
Tye is still flirting around, and I am still the old
decent=dull
me. But I've stopped taking coffee and beer.
"Xing ah, is this for you?"
My mum handed me a letter she picked up in the mail box this
morning.
I was surprised when I saw 'To:slorr...' written on the
envelope.
That's for me I guess. I opened it up, there was a piece of
writing inside, and another coffee envelope.
Slorr,
I am FlyNDance's sister, I think this is how you are
addressing
her. I am sorry that I do not know your real name, although
we'd
met before.
When I was packing her stuffs a few days ago, I found this
letter with your name and address already written on it.
So I posted it to you, because I believe this is what my
sister
intended to do.
Best wishes,
Xiao Wen
The letter was sent 3 days ago, and there was another:
'To:slorr...'
Followed by my home address written on the coffee envelope.
But
this handwriting was a lot nicer and the words seemed to be
moving
swiftly...like in a joyful dance.
I have no time to figure out how she has gotten my home
address.
Did I give her in one of my mails?
I tried to control my trembling hands, slowly, I opened up
the
envelope. I found a photo, and a half of a movie ticket
inside.
Apart from these, there was a blue letter... with the
familiar
DOLCE VITA smell on it. The photo showed her, standing on a
piece
of grassland, wearing the same coffee theme attire on our
first
meeting at McDonalds.
Something was written at the back of it....
Dear slorr,
Coffee represents Pisces.. that's me. Blue represents
Sagitarius.. that's you. A blue letter inside a coffeee
envelope.... know what I mean?
Seeing me, do you feel like drinking coffee now? Stop
drooling!
FlyNDance
I smiled.... bitterly. The contents of the blue letter is
simple:
If I have one more day to live, I want to be your girlfriend.
Do
I have one more day? No. Too bad. I can't be your girlfriend...
not
in this life.
If I have wings, I want to fly down from the paradise just to
see you. Do I have wings? No. Sadly. I can never see you
again.
If all the water are drawn out of the bath-tub, but it still
can't put off the flame of love btw us. Can all the water in
a
bath-tub be drawn off? Can.
So yes. I LOVE YOU.
FlyNDance
My chest was torn apart... tears broke through the dam I
constructed a long time go in a jiffy.
As proud, as emotionless as I was, I can't pull back the
salty
wetness that's on the whole of my face anymore.
She has changed my 'little theory' and gotten back what I'd
owed
her... tears for 2 months....
[email protected]~=-
Titanic has won 11 awards in the Oscar, including best
picture.
Yet, Rose wasn't the best actress under that category. So if
it's
sad in a movie, it may not be so fortunate too in real life. And
in
reality, should Jack hold on to Rose and 'Never let go?'
Maybe he shouldn't be worried about this. 'Cos that beautiful
coffee butterfly will continue to fly and dance in his
heart..
forever...'
~THE END~