I find myself treating my classmates no longer like classmates.
Instead, I treat them as my competitors. Every class test, every
group project and every other thing, I treat them as some people
whom I want to win against.
Although I do still hang out with them, but they don't seem to
be like classmates anymore. I do not know why, however, this
competition doesn't seem to go off. It's not once in a while, but
every single thing I always try to compete with them.
And I feel sore sometimes when I lose out to them, no idea why
the sore feeling is there.
And so yeah, I'm trying to seek out some solutions that can
change me somehow. Into a more caring person, instead of someone
who has no feelings or being cold.
And I'm in one of the five local polytechnics, just someone
trying to get better GPA.
Teehee, hopefully I can get an answer.
Weclome to to meritocratic system of Singapore! First time
here?
In Singapore, we push people down in order to move up. Like me,
I feel stressed now because I did not score high enough for
humanities.
