Depressed and Stressed

Jadedpearl SG

I'm a sec 4 girl this year (O levels...)...My grades are terrible last 3 years but my parents want me to get into RJC, and it is rly pressurizing considering they only accept 400 students from other schools :( What makes matters worse is that I am so totally infatuated with this person (I had liked him since sec 1, so it had been 3 years and it still hasn't wore off) whom I cannot ever have that I cannot focus on studying at all. I did everything in my power to get over him...Getting boyfriends, webcaming with random people, cyberdating, gaming. the only things I didn't try is what is illegal. Many times a day I feel that life is not worth living without him in my life. But I will probably never see him again after this year which makes me extremely depressed. On top of that my best friend keep on bullying me into doing things for her, without considering whether i am busy at all.

Recently I've taken to badmintoning for 1 hour and gyming for 1 hour everyday to slim down so that I can look better, so maybe he can remember me as a prettier person. But nothing can happen btwn us so I don't even know what I want...

Worse thing is, I want to complain about everything online, but I do not dare, because if people find out my name I will really be shamed and might have a landslide of problems pouring down at me.

I really do not know what to do, who to trust, and what I should do for life. Many a times I feel like just jumping down from the 25th storey, but I do not dare because of the pain...I am terrified of pain :'( and clearly none in this forum ever answered how to die without pain...

Rock^Star SG

Look at the big picture...you may be too caught up in a little world.

Emok SG

You remind me of my stupid daughter. Same case infatuated by some stupid boy. No amount of talking from me about how premature her relationship with the boy will last. When I told her that I only got a girlfriend in University, she thinks I'm some stone age gay fuck.

In short, you will live. Its just that you are too damn fucking disobedient and you got to suffer because of yourself.

Don't dream about RJC lah. Once you got that fucking boyfriend problem be glad that you don't commit suicide.

Jadedpearl SG

it's just a stupid infatuation not a relationship! I've had childish relationships to get over this infatuation but never work :(. he can never be my boyfriend anyways. I just want to get over him without doing stupid, like telling him what I feel :D

newgal SG

Tell your parents you will marry a rich man and stay at home to be a housewife.

jojobeach SG

so he is a distraction .

do not run away from it.. bravely face him and tell him how you feel.

his power over you will fade..once the truth is revealed.

be guarded your heart.. least he tries to take advantage. . or crush it with a blow of rejection.

follow your heart and bring along your brain.

Summer hill SG

Worse thing is, I want to complain about everything online, but I do not dare, because if people find out my name I will really be shamed and might have a landslide of problems pouring down at me.

You do NOT deserve this. You are 16 and have your whole life in front of you. Being a teenager sucks, trust me, I know. I was the one with glasses and a pony tail. I wasn't boy crazy and I wasn't popular. the "popular" kids would make fun of me all the time and it really really hurt. I hated all of them, but as much as it hurt, it was only temporary. What you're going through is horrible.

You should NOT feel like you are a"stupid daughter of your parents" (as someone said above). You are a capable young woman who deserves the whole world. Be strong honey. Take all of these emotions you're feeling and put them into something positive. Write down a goal for your future and work towards it. You have your whole life in front of you. Please don't take that away from yourself.