ive been reading the forum quite recently and no doubt, everyone
has problems, and i have too that i feel like, asking your opinions
about it. im gonna make it as short and simple as possible.
im a muslim. i believe in what they teach. however, im not being
a 'good' muslim. (btw im not gonna start preaching or discuss about
anyones faith here. i respect in whatever your faith is).
ive been drinking, i work in a place wherby i handle alcohol,
not always tho but at times its unavoidable, thus, made me drink,
even when im working.
other than that, there is this particular thing, which i feel
that, ive commited a really big sin. well, of course ive tried to
change or prevent it from occuring again but, its hard. its
tough.
last few weeks, ive started praying. but my drinking "addiction'
just wont go away, especially when im with my friends - chinese
friends - colleagues. so a part of me says, f*ck it man. you'll
eventually go to hell.
well the point is here, i dont wanna live a sinful life. to cut
it short, its pointless right if i were to pray and seek
forgiveness from god, but i still end up doing things which are
prohibited by my religion. i want to do good.
so, i was thinking of giving back to the soceity. i was thinking
maybe i could, set aside some of my salary, and donate it to those
who need it more than i do. OR, i actually am really really
interested in doing volunteering work. you know, like those cancer
society or make a wish foundation and they make events for the
needy or the less fortunate and they need volunteers and stuff - it
is part of giving back to the society too, right?
sometimes, i keep thinking whether i would even wake up the next
day. so even if i were to die, i would have at least made my part
by doing something good, whenever i can, even if i go to
hell.
so, what do you guys think? and if you think volunteering suits
best, where do i start? thanks guys. (and please dont talk about
religion here. im bad enough at it so lets just think at it as an
antheist, except you believe in good and bad, yin and yang, karma
etc.)
Bro, if you stop working in handling alcohol, you will stop your
alcohol addiction. Fight your ''nafsu''. Example like during
fasting month, you remind yourself not to eat/drink.