Wanna kill yourself?
Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You've had yet
another horrible day. You're just ready to give up. So you go to
your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you've
written and re-written over and over and over again. You take out
those razor blades and cut for the very last time. You grab that
bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter
to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time.
A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come
tell you dinner's ready. You don't answer, so he walks in. All he
sees is you lying on your bed so he thinks you're asleep. He tells
your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She
notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and
reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She's screaming your
name. Your brother, so confused runs to go tell Dad that "Mommy is
crying and Sissy won't wake up" your dad runs to your room. He
looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting
next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what's going on, and he
screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then,
falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him
and they sit there, holding each other, crying.
The next day at school there's an announcement. The Principal tells
everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink
in and when it does, everyone goes silent.
Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard
on you.
Those mean popular girls think of all the things they've said to
you.
That boy that used to tease you and calls you names, couldn't help
but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really
are.
Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke
up with you.. Can't handle it. He breaks down, starts crying and
runs out of the school.
Your friends? they're sobbing too, wondering how they could never
see that something was wrong. Wishing they would've helped you
before it was too late.
And your best friend, she's in shock. She can't believe it. She
knew what you were going through but she never thought it would get
that bad... Bad enough for you to end it. She can't cry, she can't
feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom and just
sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming but no tears coming
out.
It's a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came.
Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly
personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder
to cry on. Lots of people talk but all the good memories they had
with you, there were a lot. Everyone is crying, your brother still
doesn't know you killed yourself, he's too young. Your parents just
said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you
were supposed to always be there for him.
Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but
as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she
just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn't stop for days. It's
2 years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at
least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean
girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you
cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn't know how to love anymore
and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into
depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn't
succeed like you did, but she tried... Your brother? He finally
found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at
night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your
suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a
workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got
diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People
care. You may not think so, but they do.
You are a leader, your choices don't just affect you, they affect
everyone. Don't end your life, you have so much to live for. Things
can't get better if you give up. I'm here for absolutely anyone
that needs to talk, no matter who you are.
Even if we've NEVER talked before, i'm here for you.
Copy and paste this as your status to show people there are people
out there that care. Yes, i definitely care.