You placed a lot of trust in her... you gave your everything to
her, she took it and dump it back to you. Sorry to hear
that.
But I have to say, you are very silly to give up such an
important examination and wasted ONE WHOLE year worth of time for a
girl who took your love and spat it back at you. Seriously, are you
still considering wasting another year dwelling and thinking of
her?
Have you watch a movie called "Yes Man"? It starred Jim Carrey
and just like you, his wasted relationiship cost him his life,
friends, career.... everything. His ex-wife doesn't even cared for
him and yet he constantly and secretly wished she will come back to
him. Just like you, he never moved on and kept falling into an
abyss.
Eventually, he took charge of his life again and with SHEER
determination, he focused his energy on other stuff and be happier
again. The result? He got a new girlfriend who appreciates him more
and his ex-wife begged him to come take her back again.
I think we can learn a lot from this movie:
1. No one can EVER give you the comfort you need now to pick up
your life again, except you and probably your religion if you have
one.
2. No girl/woman give a DAMN after a soured relationship, and
the best way to make them regret is to GENUINELY be happy and get
your confidence and life back; no girl/woman likes a guy/man who is
in a constant pathetic state - that's right, YOU.
You still have a WHOLE life ahead of you. Make it worthwhile and
be that high-achiever you claimed you used to be. Let your ex sees
that it's her loss that she dumped you. But most importantly, do it
not for her but for yourself because the only person in this world
that matters MOST to you is YOURSELF.
Find the strength to love yourself, and everything good will
come back to you eventually.
Oh, and I have to say this: there are gonna be tons of girls who
are gonna break your heart for the next decade of your life or
so; it's part of life. You will find a better someone. Yes yes, she
is nice, you still have fond memories of her, but truth
is: SHE DOES NOT CARE SO WHY SHOULD YOU?!
Stay pathetic, and you shall be. People will pity you
but you know you have to snap out of it REALLY SOON. Just do
yourself a favor, like NOW!
