Haixxx he just booked in today.
I've got another problem. Its not a recent development but has
been going on for almost half a year already. It feels like he's
not really as into me anymore. We had a cold war because of it a
few months ago but we made up. Didn't address the root problem,
just pretended it didn't happen. I keep trying not to think about
it but it is really bothering me a lot. Of course I didn't mention
it to him. He has enough to deal with as it is.
It's really hard to miss him so much and try to do so much
for him when I don't know whether is he serious or not. Even
before he enlisted, he seemed so distant. Everytime we met up then,
it was always me going to find him, me making the first move, me
going out of my way to do something for him.
Even though I want to see him so badly and am really really
happy when I do see him, it really feels like he's just playing
along to make me feel good. And its worse when all the
things that remind me of him while he's in camp are things he
gave me before he started to act weird. When he was thoughtful,
sensitive and really caring. Now it feels so one sided.
Really really depressed cuz there's nothing I can do now. No
matter how sad I am, I won't ever tell him until he ORDs. Which is
like 5 years. I promised him I'll stay with him until he says he
doesn't want me anymore and I'm gonna keep that promise.
Just need some advice on how to cope with this. Been losing
sleep. Really tired from pretending everything is alright.
Well, r/s is nvr fair 1 ma... at times u'll feel you are doing
more... at times mayb he'll feel he's doing more.. but since u feel
that there's some issue with the r/s. You shld probably find out
the root cause and deal with it. While love is unfair, it takes
efforts from both sides to make the whole r/s work.
Good luck!
