You need to go for abortion and a health checkup. Certain
diesease can be cured if detected early, once pass a certain date,
the disease will stay with you permanently, so it’s advisable to go
checkup for any sexual diesease asap.
As for abortion, it’s not painful. You will be sedated and put
to sleep and the more painful portion is emotional/guilt etc… But
for the sake of decision making, I think it’s wise to abort so as
not to complicate your life, your family life, the child’s life.
(For you, it will be hard for you to find a boyfriend next time
with a child, most guys don’t want such free gifts. For your
family, it will be complicated how they think of you and that will
make you feel bad every year whenever there is a gathering. For
your child, when he grow up, he will ask how come he’s different
and where’s his dad etc) So the wise decision is to go for
abortion.
And for your own sake, go get health checkup like I say, some
diesease can be cured if detected early. Same like cancer, as long
as it’s contained in a part or haven’t spread, it can still be
cured. But once it spreads, it’s too late.
No point feeling depressed now, what’s done cannot be undone.
Look forward, you’re at the lowest point of your life and no matter
how dark it look, the days ahead will get brighter if you start
making smarter decisions about your life.