Hi. im sorry if this type of problem becoming cliche but im just
want to let it out and need some of your advice.
4 years ago i was quite lonely. I only have my school friends
which is normal but we dont really hangout, Just a hi and bye
situation.
3 years ago was the best year ever. I started to get to know my
friends from work and he intro me to his friends and sooner or
later, we all are like big family. We all hang out here and there
almost everyday. Totally best. As time pass by, few of our groups
starts to fall. 4-5 of them went to NS. another few of them got
into r/s and some into overseas studies. And we're left like with
only 3 people. Due to the numbers, we met like once every 2 months
or so and i started to get this lonely feeling again.
2 years ago was the last year i met up with those 2. As one of
them going overseas and another went to NS. I was at home for like
more than 4 months. It was really awkward and i feel sad inside. I
went across some of my old friends blogspot and all of them have
their group of friends and have their own life. I feel envy and
sad.
A year ago, my school friends sent me an invite for a old time
gathering. Obviously i go and i never felt so joyful and free. one
of them actually ask me out to go with them for a movie and meet up
with other of her friends. I accepted it. We all hang out once a
week. As months go by, we didnt hang out anymore because she stop
msging. So i msg her that she wants to hangout and she replied
she's now busy with her project and relationship. I cant hang out
with her friends anymore because it be awkward if i go there
without her around.
And now... now i feel lonely again. Is this sort of thing is
fated? am i really destined to be alone?