i just need some advice and opinion on whether im doing the
right thing.
ive been trying to get over this guy. he made me think we had a
chance but when he just didnt make a move, i knew it was either i
misinterpreted what i perceived or he was just too cowardly to do
anything about it. it was awkward and painful, especially when
people around us noticed and kinda anticipated something to happen
between us.
BUT i was the subject, could you imagine how i
would feel, especially when i started to like him a lot because of
what he was doing to me.
so i knew i had to move on. and this is made harder because we
are school mates and we see each other every single day. i blocked
him on msn. i avoided going to where he was. i rejected lunches
with groups of friends as long as he was there.
basically i avoided him and pretended that i wasnt. i think he
didnt suspect anything becuase we kinda drifted apart. i didnt give
him a chance to question about it either. basically we never spoke
or interacted even though we see each other.
i would find myself getting better, less emo. but whenever i had
to see him or talk to him, i would just plunge into deep sadness
again. i have been having rollar coaster rides these few months
with him.
i would tell myself not to sucuumb and talk to him even though i
really wanted to.
and i guess he doesnt know because i kinda have been fighting
this war on my own. he probably doesnt know that ive been building
a wall to keep him out. he probably just thought that i didnt want
to come online anymore, or that our paths dont cross any more, by
chance.
i want to know if im doing the right thing in helping me move
on. is avoiding him the best option? then why do i relapse again
and again after i get better?
The more you put effort, the more painful it gets.
The less effort you put, the more you learn to be comfortable
around him you will get over him.
It takes time. How old are you?
