Recently, I got a job and this job makes me feel stupid and even
act stupid ... like more than ever!
I got verbally abuse by both the senior and junior predecessors.
But the junior one is much more irritating as his/her position is
lower than mine and I could sense his/her s_______ from afar and
yet he/she dares to talk down to me. I was actually glad he/she
left but on his/her last day, this new person who only came a few
days before me but yet integrated into the job pretty well, sort of
stab me right in front of him/her and that crazy junior stood up
from his/her seat and shouted at me with an expression like he/she
wanted to beat me up so much.
The new person was really competent and street smart and I do
not think I could measure up to him/her. He/she achieved a high gpa
at a polytechnic that everyone calls the diploma of ITE. (Green is
the colour) And all I have is a Higher Nitec and a partial
professional accounting certificate. Everyone in the office likes
him/her a lot.
Add to that, I'm not very experience and/or smart person that
reads people well or maybe even my work. I ask stupid questions and
get them all riled up. It seems like I don't even deserve to go for
studies as many jobs previously held thought I am uneducated and
even discourage me to drop out of school.
I don't understand loads of things at work and this job demands
me to be as independent as possible.
After getting this job, lots of people that I met recently puts
me down (really furiously), I even got my stepmum angry at me and
she threatens that if I don't properly utilize my brains, I would
be thrown out of the house because I shamed her. (She's a
personification of Narcissus)
Sometimes I don't know what kind of job I could do well in
without getting into trouble or even passing. I am really envious
of people that could think on their feet.
Haiz, u write so long n so longwinded.
"U r wat u believe u r". So continue lah, if u still think u r
failure, u canot do tis or tat, u will continue to be a loser.
Say tis "I am successful, I can do tis, I can do tat. I believe
in myself". Then a lot of good thing will come to u. Dun believe?
Ok, try the way u been using all the while, see what good benefit
it do to u all these years.
