suffering from depression?
confusion? frustration? i really dunoe.... :(
Whats the problem
with me?
I knew there
something deep in my heart which till now I couldn’t open up
since.
It lead me to
confusion… unable to focus my work stuff. Trying so hard to get
over things and telling my colleagues how to overcome my problems.
They will asked me what problem I facing. I told them they are
accumulated. I have been depressing myself for almost a month or
so? Telling my bf about these problems only help at that
moment.
He told me to
ignore these stuffs… my heart is struggling for a better life, a
better me.
i have even a
friend, told me, dun “Zua Niu Jiao Qian” – thinking too extreme I
guess., face the problem and be brave.
It is always to be
said than done. I took every question as a burden, and seem every
question to me needed to be commited.
Taking things too
hard, too serious.
I couldn’t really
enjoy things I wanna do like how my friends did.
Etc, going for a
holiday… I will worried for transport how to go home when I reach
Singapore? Etc etc..
Going to work,
first thing come to my mind is what to do first? But I have left
many things undone, untouched….
But it don’t seem
to help at all.
What should I
do?
School
School has always
been tough.
Social – however,
my toughest thing is to face my coursemates.
For instance, I
will feel rather bad that I shared my school stuffs with Team A,
not Team B, etc. or dining in, I will feel bad when I know my
coursemate will paid for my drinks, that I obliged to jus accept
the offer by them most of the time.
about work
oso too much problem until i duno what to say...
Too much to say
until I duno what to say…
I rush my stuffs,
end up loads of mistakes. I should check it but Im lack of
patience.
ITS MY PROBLEM.. I
knew it. Even my boyfriend says it.
I took everything so seriously that holding it
too tightly…. L
Becos of this
accumuatated problems, I couldn’t get over it, I think of ending my
life… but I have no courage over it.
I CAN ONLY HELP
MYSELF.
NOBODY ELSE DOES.
EXCEPT ME.
