I just found that that i need to retain one more year for
JC.Now i am troubled on whether if i should retain or go poly.
The reason for me retaining is most probably due to me playing
too much.For the first half of the year, i focused on being a good
archery quarter master.However,during the june holidays, i decided
to devote my all on studying.At that time, i always study with my
ex archery captain,who was two years my senior.
Results for mid year:
Chem U 30/100
phy C 55/100
math S 44/100
geo S 44/100
Gp D 50/100
However after the june hoildays , my captaina nd i became a
couple.Most probably due to the affection that took place during
the hoildays.During this period, i didnt reallt focus on studying
for around 1 month.
During the second month , something happened to our relationship
and we broke up 1 week before the Promos.
In the end i got this for my promo
Gp E
Math U
Phy U
chem U
geo D
I know that it is obvious that i retain largely due to this
problem.But because i had never tried my best in JC before, now i
dont know if i am the JC type.I fear that even after i give my
best,i will till end up with sucky grades.
Currently, i found out that i cant give in my all in my
studies.When i give in my all, i will be reminded of my ex gf
(captain),which result in this void feeling within.Though we broke
up like 2 months ago, but this feeling still linger.
Also, i am not sure if i am more of an arts or sci student,
considering that i manage to pass my geo by studying one week
before the exam,but i fail my sciences when i did the same.
My parents advices me to go poly(we even had a heated arguement
on that).They feel that going poly now will provide more sense of
security.This makes sense but i feel, with my mindset,even if i go
poly, i wont do well...Many feel that poly is easy..Yes to pass is
easy,but to score is not..My final goal no matter what is
university.
The problem now is i dont know which course of direction is the
best one.I have already wasted one yearand i dont wish to make any
choices that would cause me to regret again.
Poly life is slower, but not truly easier than JC life.
Indeed, a poly dip holds more weight than an A-lvl cert in
general, but it is not truly that much better, if you cannot get
into a uni.
To be honest, remaining in JC or switching to poly will not make
you regret. It is not doing enough to make a turnabout from your
current situation that will be sure to make you regret.
If you want to remain in JC, you will have to accept by now that
you will have to put in a lot of effort and have adequate
discipline. From your one year experience, you should know what is
expected of you.
If you want to switch to poly, you will need to know what degree
courses you will want to take up when you enter uni. It will be
pointless for you to take up a diploma course which you have no
interest in, or does not lead to the degree course which you want
to take up.
If you think poly is slackier, than you are greatly mistaken. A
lot of people do not have adequate discipline in poly, and stray
off, due to the many temptations and less pressure in poly life. As
a result, they do not do well for their diploma. In poly, you will
have to self-discipline, as there is less peer pressure in most
(but not all) faculties as compared to in JC.
Summing it up, here are the questions you should ask
yourself:
1) Can I instill discipline in myself if I were to continue my
studies in JC?
2) What degree course do I wish to take up?
3) If I were to continue in JC, what should I do and what should
I NOT do?
