Dear All,
At this point of time, when this
letter gets out, I believed I will have reached my limit and given
up.
Coward I am , stupid I
am.
What’s done cannot be undone, since
the failure of business, I have been in debt, my sister is so kind
enough to offer me help financially but there is only so much that
can be done. Still I am in huge debt.
I had a dream, I want to have a
family, I want to have a home, I want to come home to a family with
my own children. This is not going to happen.
Here came the point of no return, I
resort to gambling to try to get the money back to get on with my
life, stupid as it is, really stupid wrong move.
How the hell did I get myself into
this situation.
It’s a value of no
return…….$150k.
The banks are chasing me up till
the dead end.
In the past, when I see people
gambling their life away, I was like why so stupid, now that I
became one of them.
I really hope people who know me
will not look at me in a bad way, I end up taking the worst path in
life that leads to the end of it.
I am surrounded by great friends, I
have a great family, but the mistakes I have committed has thrown
everything off the line.
This became more prominent when I
am at the brim of breakage.
My Love, My family, my
friends……..
Looking back in life, things has
been very good, I had everything that money cannot buy.
Friends, Family, good prospect in
work…….all come to a halt at this point.
I HAVE THROWN EVERYTHING
AWAY.
I know my parents will be well
taken care of by my sisters and I know they have trusted husband by
their side. All of them have a happy family.
Parents, I am
sorry that I have thrown a life that was given to me by mum and
dad. How I wish I can be stable enough to send you guys out for
holidays, coming home to tell you, Dad, this is return ticket for
Japan, go and enjoy with mum. But now, everyday I just escape from
home, I cannot face you guys.
Sisters, your
brother has become a useless idiot. A really idiot, why am I so
different from both of you. I wish I could have seen
nephew and niece grow up, but seems like it will be an
impossible thing.
I do not want to drag all of you
down this way.
I cannot face anyone, really
cannot.
I cannot face anyone at
all………
At this worst point of life, there
came HER, she brought a little brightness to my life, that put of
my decision to end it all. A care and concern I had not experience
in these darkest hours.
Her I am sorry
that I ended up dragging you into this, did not expect myself to
have fallen for you and it is really a very wrong time. I should
not step into this….
HOW I WISH we had developed this
relationship 5 months ago, this could have stop me from making such
a stupid move.
But your presence has given me
brightness in the last days of my life.
Your presence give me that
comfort……
Six buddies, I am
blessed with the company of close friends who talked to me, but I
am too guilty to tell the truth and felt so stupid, I cannot face
you guys, the same as I cannot face my family because u guys has
become like a family to me.
I am sorry to have not tell the
truth, even at this point blank, my ego is still playing
me.
I would rather leave then tell any
truth.
But it was heart warming when u
guys seat down and ask me what happened.
I was closed to tears.
All my other friends, there are
tons of people who helped me financially that this was possible
only because u trusted me, but I betrayed that trust.
Just want to thank you
guys.
You merely reached a
comma, not yet end of the road.
If you end up killing yourself, you merely pass the buck to all
your love ones to suffer.
You need assistance. Please call the credit counselling hotline
@ 6338 266 or you can visit: http://www.ccs.org.sg/ 
Cheers
