Hi. I currently facing a few problems with some females that I
know. They're not big issues, but I really need some feedback and
suggestions to get them off my head as I keep thinking about them.
There's a total of 4 girls that are involved that goes back several
years. It's going to be quite a long topic, but i'll try to keep
them short. I'll post about 1 girl at a time.
A little background about myself. I'm currently 19, studying in
Poly 3rd year, gonna graduate top 10% of my diploma cohort (yea
baby!). I'm a little overweight at 81 KGs at 174cm but i'm
exercising and dieting. Not exactly the most attractive guy, as I
have some minor acne, thin and curly hair (this one sucks), wears
glasses (normal ones, not those thick white ones). I'm extremely
idealistic (Wrong means Wrong, Right means Right, I don't care if
you're physically attractive or rich), which isn't exactly a
likable feature in a conservative country like Singapore.
Everything else about me is roughly average, middle income family,
live in HDB, balance between gaming and going out.
Girl
A
This goes back all the way when i was 14, Secondary 2, when I
was much more overweight. Me and this girl are close friends, so
close that everyone in class jokes about how we are the perfect
match, and we don't shy away from it, we join in the fun.
At this point of time, we really were just friends, no
expectations nor feelings. So, it happens that I had a crush on a
younger girl in my CCA, and as expected of young boys and girls,
the news spread fast... as in the whole CCA and class knew
overnight.
It sucked of course, which resulted in the CCA girl ignoring me.
But what's interesting is that "Girl A" also started ignoring me.
Now, of course i was very confused. I tried talking to her and
stuff but she always brushed me off in anger, some times even
screaming at me.
Now... she's a good girl, still a good girl today, but I have
never seen her this way before and still, to this day, have no
confirmed theory on why. As I was young and a little stupid at the
time, I started to "Hate" her too for some apparent reason. But of
course... you only start appreciating things when you lose them. So
I started to miss all the fun we had together and stuff, and I
eventually had feelings for her.
Then in the following year, a friends of mine spread the news
that I liked her. Ah hell... didn't really blame him. Now... this
resulted in her ignoring me, just like how the younger CCA girl
ignored me. Shit... is this how all girls react when they find out
stuff like that?
So, up to this day, we never really talked. We met a few times
in class reunions and stuff, but never really had a conversation.
But man... even after meeting much more attractive and smarter
girls, she's the one that "got away".
A friend of mine said that she was young and immature during
that period, that all young girls are shallow. He said that it was
understandable, saying that all guy's don't want to have a
relationship with an obese girl either. And that really got into my
head.
Still, even after meeting the future 3 girls that I'll post in
other threads, she's the one that I'll miss. It's been 4 years
since we last talked, wonder if she's cool with me now. But it got
me thinking... why was she mad when I was interested in another
girl? Was it something I did? Or was it Jealousy? Did she have
feelings for me then? It's a long shot... but it's the most
probable theory I have right now. Maybe I think too much......
Well that's it for Girl A. Feedback, comments
and suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
Yes, the moral behind the story is that LOVE must always be kept as
a secret until the last moment and only allowed to be shared
exclusively to the one you loved.
Took you this long to learn this lesson?
It's your fault.
