my ex-company has vacancy and asked if i want to go back.
i have been working as casual worker for almost 2 years due to the
financial crisis, so this is an opportunity to regain my "original
status".
however, i have some reservations. the company had a
change of management, so the culture is different now. i am
afraid of being rejected by my ex-company if i apply for the
job. i also feel embarrassed to let them know that i was
merely a casual worker since i left the company years ago. in
addition, i have a "phobia" of burn-out. i am afraid that if
i take up the job, i may quit again.
currently i am picking up new knowledge and skills. if i
go back, it would disrupt the new career development.
nevertheless, if i stay with the new career development, there is
no guarantee that it will take off due to competition and
age. i was good at my last job, however as it's been a while
since i was at it, i am not sure if i still have the passion to
excel in it.
i have gotten used to the freelance lifestyle of a casual
worker. i have a strong resistance against "losing my
freedom" by taking up an office job. the drawback of
casual work is the unstable income which a "proper" day job will be
able to give.
what should i do ? apply or not to ? how do i break
my inhibition ?
