is it possible that i have brain damage ? i don't seem to
think "normally" like most people (peers) or desire the things that
other people care about.
most of my peers care about career progression, getting married
and having a family, building security for retirement, etc.. the
usual 5 Cs. i seem to lag behind in terms of the 5Cs (the
tangible possessions). it's not that i don't desire them, or
i'm stupid or lazy. i remember i was a very "on" person who
chiong all the way in terms of school results and job.
however one incident in school turned my life 180 deg. i
was never the same thereafter, emotionally and psychologically.
that incident made me lose my life direction and my
life was thrown into chaos. physically i was normal,
intellectually i'm good, but emotionally i was a wreck.
so i began to seek the more spiritual stuff in a bid to find
meaning in life.
since then, i got out of the valley and plunged into it, got out
of it and plunged into it again. just when i thought i had
clarity, something would happen to thrown me off board again.
thus here i am today.
when i look back at this journey, i don't know if i should cry
or laugh. it's a journey, my journey. i wish that damn
incident never happened. i wish many things had happened
differently. but what has happened happened. when i
look around and see how seemingly lagging behind i am from my peers
and the "normal" things that are missing in my life, i feel
sad. most people seem to have it so easily, why is it so
difficult for me ?
It must be tough for you to carry on with your life after you were
repeatedly raped by your best friends in the male toilet at
school.
I believe you have brain damage if you tell me you have
forgotten to share with us what exactly happened in your school
which have caused you to change your behaviour.