I really cannot imagine my life without this guy. It really hurt
me to let him go.
Despite all that had been said and helpfully written here, it is
sadly fallen upon your deaf ears. Even harsh words failed to work
on you.
You are the kind of girl who when even abused by the one you
fell for, would not leave but hope for a better day. You are
addicted to him, akin to a drug addict in need for a daily fix or
will suffer withdrawal symptoms, similar to you now
experiencing.
But you are not a drug abuser, only confused and trapped by
'love' and the solace it seems to bring to you.
The root of your problem stems from your loneliness. Your
despical lover had encourage and helped you realize your deepest
fantazy, and your construction of dreams became a temporary
reality, for his own personal use. You had been deluded, and still
are living in a delusion,
No matter what others say, you will not listen or believe, for
that constructed facade is a reality to you which you clinged
on, due to your loneliness.
So rather than to pull away the rug under you with harsh words,
let us be your friends instead, to rid of your loneliness. Whenever
you feel lonely, just pour out your woes to us, let us listen, in
pm if you wish.
I dont care if you are rich or poor, black or white, beautiful
or fat and ugly. The only ugliness i know are those in the
heart. You too, like everyone of us, are a precious life, a
fellow human being. Never hurts to have more friends, right?
In time, your dependency will wither with more friends in your
social circle, the way a drug abuser will grow less on the need for
abusive substances. Theirs is cold turkey way, which is a form of
torture, but for yours, cold turkey would only drive you deeper
into your dependency of him. Your problem is only loneliness and a
need for someone to care, not drugs anyway.
PS: I may not be a good friend, for i have erratic work hours
and move around a lot. My suitcase is always packed and ready. Thus
I may not be there for you at all times. But I am sure that if you
open up yourself to others, there will be similar lonely souls who
will in time become good friends to you. Any volunteers?
