Hey I have a similar situation to yours, of course not as
serious but the basics are there, and I got a couple of things to
say. The world isn't perfect, and there's absolutely no way to
change that. Capitalism, Marxism, Feudalism, we tried them all and
they all didn't work out well. After saying that, I'll tell you
this, no one is perfect, not in this system, not in this world.
Your 14, same as me, and at the best time of your life where you
have the freedom of thought and innocence, and you shouldn't bring
forward your misery, because when you enter the working world, life
is going to be a whole lot worse, and you lose even your basic
freedom. If you feel pathetic, then know that everyone else is the
same. On a more complicated term, humans are mere slaves to their
own system, and most don't even know that.
As for your CCA, mine is a whole lot worse than yours. I don't
even have the basic attendance, nor do I have any rights in it. For
me, it's just a name that's written in black and white, so you
shouldnt feel negative about yours. What kind of a cca will deny
your efforts for a camp anyway? And girls? Well your just 14 and
it's not the time yet to worry about them.
Finally, judging by the replies you must have been posting such
emo threads often in the past aye?