I reached to the point of no return.
I want to join gang . I need a sense of belonging.
I can't continue such life. It really sucks. I feel my life's like
a puppet really.
I want to get nine dragon. I'm the big boss. I want everything that
can ruin my life.
I hate myself. I'm fat , ugly and can only watch on fbt girls with
other boys while I envy those boys so much.
It's over.
I want to slice and dice up my hands , my arms and everything I
am.
Crap this world, I can't get th things I wish or dreamed for.
Pain's always the word that comes when I want something.
But in the end I still won't get what I want even how much I seek
for.
Sometimes I pray to God and ask him to bless me.
He didn't yet gave up on me. Made me despair over life.
What's more left in life when I'm lost in the soul.
Who can help me find back what I lost in life?
Friends doesn't seem to be friends.
I don't seem to be myself.
But do I even have friends in the first place? I don't.
Friends or what just take me as a tool. A tool for their
happiness.
I crack my *** out and do things for them.
But they don't recognise me as part of their clique.
I'm nothing , just a piece of trash which God doesn't even
care.
What's there left for a useless one?
Popular kids rule over school, while I rule the broom.
They make rules, make people laugh and people admire them.
I do the dirty work and yet no one cares. Despair is the
word.
I just want to have friends but why I can't have one.
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I'm so ugly and fat and short like a gummy crap.
God made me ugly and useless why must he?
Does God even exist in the modern days?
I bet he don't , he can't help me at all.
I'm short till girls are taller than me. 5ft tall.
I'm fat and I got man boobs. Piece of crap I am.
I can't change and I self destruct.
Pathetic is my middle name.
Teachers give up on me, saying they wouldn't care about me.
They care about handsome boys and just think I'm out of their
league.
We are humans but I don't get equal respect I suck my life
out.
Just end my life would anyone?
I suck at sports I can't get a goal in. I miss chances.
Others take the credit while I'll get the music.
Who can I seek help from?
Not me definitely neither God.
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I just want to be popular and admired by all.