Thanks for letting me to vent myself...
Actually just want to share...
I feel sometimes a bit sad....because I feel that I am often at
a position of second fiddle....
A lot of times, I didn't notice it, or didn't take it to
heart.
But lately when I am thinking about myself, and my past, I can
see that I am often a second fiddle player...
When I was a kid, often times I would be sidelined, I guess I am
not a popular kid, and as I grow older, same thing still happened /
persisted.
In terms of social standing, I am a jealous person. Always want
to be the first, forefront, but I am only 2nd rate. Actually it's
true.
And I have a problem in that I can feel jealous or envious,
although it's subtle, but I would be asking myself, why I can't be
that person.
For example.....my cousin is so tall, handsome, rich (son of
tycoon level), and very easily get the attention of ladies. It's
always like this. One time when I go with him, we were on holiday
and touring, and the tourist guide, a sweet young lady, almost
latched herself onto him and chit chatted with him so happily. Hey,
what about me?
Actually thinking about this, since I was young, my best friends
were all also mostly tall and handsome guys, now I realize I must
have looked like a sidekick back then.
I still remember how some girls would ask me about my best
friend, where he was etc, as if I am some kind of secretary maybe,
or a sidekick.
In family life I am also dealing with some issues, as I am the
second child (out of 4), and I have an elder sister. This is
probably a bad setting because I would feel uneasy and
uncomfortable growing up. My sister is very dominating, we didn't
have a good relations.
But anyways I have come to peace with my sister and my family
life (I think) because I am getting older now.
Haizz...thinking back, I have also never been given any
leadership position, in anywhere, usually at most I become a
vice-something, or a deputy-something, never the number 1, or I get
to become number 1 but only after a rotation.
So that is the story of my life, a nice guy, boy next door, who
plays second fiddle.
Thanks for listening.
Hi Veggie Bao,
Pardon me for saying this, but nice guys are those who are not
only willing to stretch out their hands to help others, but also at
the same time silently end behind others. Those who wish to appear
nice to others, and yet at the same time stand above others and
dominate them are rarely, if ever, truly nice.
It is good to be who you are, for you must understand that
kindness is not always rewarded. Those who are nice to others only
because they want something in return will not be happy, for they
are just pretending to be not whom they truly are. I sincerely hope
that you are not offended and will not feel upset about my
post.
Cheers.
