my gf (msian in msia) and i (sporean in spore) are in a
long-distance relationship. we've been together for 10 months.
she's older than me, in her mid-to-late 20s, while i'm in my
early-20s.
we sort of broke off a mth ago due to emotional abuse that i
endured for 4 months which i shall not elaborate. it's like
all the constant criticisms teetering on the edge of insults,
contantly putting me down on every single thing, making me feel so
worthless, thinking that her XX yrs of life experience more than me
is so great and stuff.
but aft that i decided to forgive her and give her and us a
chance. so we got back together in the end.
then a few days ago, she said she doesn't love me as much as
before.
i admit i didn't love her as much as before during the early
stages of patching up. but then slowly, the feelings came back and
the love nurtured again.
ytd, she broke off with me, changed her fb status, untag all my
photos, deleted all our uploaded photo albums.
but she's known as a rash person and take things in the literal
sense, never really delving deep into her heart and be in touch
with her feelings for me, and also without sparing a
thought for me sometimes.
we're in this r/s and we know what we're in for from the start.
i just want her to hold on no matter what because i know with
compromisation, tolerance, patience, learning, we'll be good. we're
good for each other.
but she's always hinting to me that she needs my physical
presence. i would love to go over, but i can't due to various
commitments such as taking care of my handicapped and aging
parents, cleaning the house, studies (plan to get my
degree) and all.
What i asked for from her is a lil' more understanding. but all
she can tell me is she can't take it anymore. she can't feel me
when she wants to and i can't be there physically for her.
i just wanna ease her insecurities and make things better. but
i'm not sure how. she's the only girl i truly see my future
with.
sigh.