Though i'm not behaving like i'm mad, i know i'm still angry
inside. After the "matter", i realize i have grown to become
less patience and to be there for people. I guess i tried too hard
previously which lead to an ultimate burnout. It was very sad to
discover that the other party who you have been good to is not
worth to your effort and not your time
I guess the "matter" has created much changes to me. It was both
good and bad. At least i learnt from the lesson, who to trust and
whom not to trust. In a bad way, i have grown less compassionate
and become more indifference. I don't feel like caring for people
anymore because the people that you were good to had created so
much trouble for you, trash your kindness like rubbish and insult
your own dignity.
I wrote this in the forum trying to find that goodness back
inside. Where has the kind, simple and warm-heartedness for friends
has gone to ? So tell me some good tips on how to grow out from
it?
When you give, do you expect a return ? If you do, then there's
no need for the recipient to say a word of thanks. But awaits for
the next opportunity to return back this "earned" favor. And to
assume such transaction, the giver must give and make known the
expectations that this is a gesture done for a purpose.
When you give, are you buying "trust" and "friendship" from the
recipient ? If you do, then you are setting yourself up for
disappointment. For trust and true friendships cannot be
BRIBED.
Trust is a result of a person's character. And friendship is
developed through time, via the art of sharing among people.
Live your life vicariously through the happiness of another.
That way, you will earn trust from your friends, but NOT the other
way round.