thing is .. we broke up cos it was my fault. it is my 1st
relationship ..and it lasts for 2 yr plus.. and im
saying its my fault cos im damn xiao jie la.. taking what he
did as for granted, ask him help me do this, do that
etc .. then once, i asked for breakup , cos he didn
have time for me due to his exams ...surprising ... he said
'ok'( i think he was slowly getting fed up at me ). then he
really broke up with me~ :(
The few mths without him i really regret not treating him well..
i reflected and i think i really treat him for granted .. i tried
going out with guys to try to 'numb' myself.. and even try to look
for a another guy , in hoping my pain will lessen but
know that will be really unfair to 3rd guy if i do that.
Since he is my 1st, i think it will be quite hard for me to
forget him .. i really tried but cant...
I tried to confess to him ... saying im sorry etc and he ask me
not to wait for him anymore. He prefer his single life even
though he admitted that he still likes me a bit..
I was thinking.. since he is having his exams now.. maybe i
can wait after his exams and try to win him back? i know my
chances might be very less but i really still wanna try !
>< Im not sure what guys likes etc so im asking what i
should do ... im hoping for that miracle that we will patch back
><
carving knife, anti bacteria wipes and glove. 
ok jokes aside, since he asked you not to wait for
him anymore, why don't you take some time off, cut
yourself some slack and get a new pet? they're usually more
reliable than guys and serve as good distraction.
why waste energy on somebody who doesn't want to be with
you?
