thanks all! ha ha, actually, i just took 2 days MC lah.......i
didn't even say anything but the doctor just say "ok, i
give you 2 days MC, don't think so much, rest at home,
ok?". LOL.......we need more docs like that.
anyway, back to topic.......my job is like admin asst level,
more like coordinator like that.
someone once told me that admin jobs, regardless of which one,
it will get repetitive after a while when you're familiar with the
operations, which is 100% true.
salary is important but the job nature is also
important.....everything do the same old thing, 9 - 6:30 PM.....7
days, 4 weeks, 12 months, 365 days.....
and my company is very very tiny mini company.....only got 3
staff including me (crazy huh?). so where got chance to get into
another "department" or take on new job scopes?
haiz......i'm been obsessing over finding a job recently, and if
my boss retrench me, all the happier i am.
as for self-worth, to some people like me, our sense of
"self-worth" comes from what we do and what we can achieve.
i remember when i first joined this current company, i was so
siao-on like mad because there was challenges (since i was a
newbie). during that time, i feel like some hot-shot corporate
honcho (although i'm a small coordinator) and i feel so mighty and
manly.
then, now......the challenges die alway due to proficiency in
dealing with them, and my work is getting badder and badder
everything due to plummeting morale (now, my boss starts to
question my work quality).
see how first lah.......i really hope economy can get better
soon so that i've more choices.
furthermore, 3-staff small company ---> less colleagues
---> not much social interaction ---> even lower self-worth +
loneliness + losing sanity by the minute ---> below-zero morale
= worst employee ever
plus, we have no HR dept, so got no where to voice my
problems.
and my boss = non-nonsense absolute da-nan-ren-zhu-yi (big man
idea)......to him, yes means yes, black means black, white means
white, no such thing as grey.
his mentality is
"I-farking-pay-u-to-work-here-so-dun-gimme-emo-crap-dun-like-it-just-fark-off-i-hire-somebody-got-millions-who-want-this-job".
also, now is recession, sometimes he over-react on me over very
very harmless minor things and scream at me........people who see
his rage would think i killed his family or something.