I tried to stay platonic but failed .
U led me on with a glimpse of hope and cuddled me to slp when we
shldnt.
Only to know i was there to fill a void in ur heart the next
day.
I thought i could win u over.
I thought our differences could be smoothen out with years of
understanding.
Yet u said a rls shld be exciting, fun and not familiarity.
I tried but only to find myself miserable and suffocating while
u r enjoying singlehood freedom.
U conveniently forget promises , yet i remembered every single
thing i ever done for u.
Not for returns , but for appreciation.
Maybe u didnt really take me to heart as ur closest
friend/lover.
U told me to stay as close friends.
I said i cant treat u like close friend anymore.
U didnt reply.
I tried.
U smiled.
I felt pain.
U felt nothing.
I think i shld let u go.
Gd bye my best friend.
The notion of platonic is always a full
stop.
Hence, the problem lies with your notion of platonic - it was
blatantly a comma instead. What happens here is that
subconsciously, you perceive her as potential - just not yet
manifested. Albeit you might see your effort as one-off-no-return,
but the truth is that you are counting. Not just generally, but in
some specific, precise manner. I will quote two sentences:
[Quote]:
yet i remembered every single thing i ever done for
u.
I tried but only to find myself miserable and
suffocating while u r enjoying singlehood freedom.
[/Unquote]
If you are being led by people you deemed as
platonic friends, then you have to reexamine the premise of
'platonic' - the definition of what it takes to qualify as
platonic.
P.S: Most people are conferring the title of 'platonic
friendship' as a facade for potential relationship.
And don't get me wrong - it's great to transform a relationship
from a friendship. Just that when you deemed certain relationship
as platonic - it is a bond devoid of the romantic and sexual
love.
Perhaps it might be so for her, but not so for you. 
Cheers
