Previously I have an account here with 900+ posts but forgotten
my login details and this post marked my first thread with a new
username. ;)
Lately, I'm torn in between a relationship coming to 4 years and
a new friend, lets call him G in this unsettled mess..
I knew G in this company that I'm with. He is one of our working
partners whose office is nearby and every few days in a week will
pop by for some work related issues. We weren't that close when we
first started off to be in this project that both of our companies
are in but appear to be only communicating over work matters.
Sometimes personal but not very frequent that type.
We only hit it off to be rather close friends about 2 months
back when we went for an outing together and constantly would msn
for hours everyday and chatted on the phone afterwards. He appeared
to me as someone with very witty comments, mature yet humourous and
knew how to carry himself well. I was very attracted to his
attitude and easy-going personality that I couldn't pull myself out
from developing some sort of liking towards him. I knew it was
wrong from the start.
After hearing from a mutual friend that G may have like me, i
went ahead to tell how i felt towards him. It was real silly of me
as it turned he was stunned and did not know how to react to this
situation that he had never imagined it to be. There was no direct
answer from him and sensing that this is not going anywhere. I lied
to him that I'm mistaken about my own feelings and I only liked him
as a close friend.
There was a few outings with our same clique but I couldn't
really bring myself to start off a conversation with him.
Somehow, this act has really jeopardized our friendship and we
weren't as close as before. Feelings of awkwardness still lingers
when he pops over once in a while. I tried to striked it off but I
still feel very demoralized deep down. Upset and can't seem to
focus on any other thing. Really, really lost..
What should i do ?
