actually i did try to get over it...
i kept all her photos away, deleted her number and simply just
stopped myself from contacting her
i thought i succeeded ....
then i dreamt of her out of the blue
when i woke up, i realised i miss her so much
we are still friends now actually but we hardly contact one
another
the last time we spoke, she told me that she still kept the
flowers i gave her during valentine's day when we were still
together
i don't know what that means as i don't want to misunderstand
nor be misled
but on the other hand, i acted on impulse and frankly told her i
failed at getting over her completely. I asked her how did she do
it
She said "just think of your current gf and family as the best
gift of your life"
my friends once told me i can never let go if i keep hanging on
to the faintest hope which might not even be there
but i just cant convince myself till this day that she's no
longer mine
its really a battle between my mind and my heart and sometimes i
really just want to cry it all out but no tears ever came
i tried praying to God for help and guidance
till today i know i still love her but she's no longer here
for her to still be with that same guy up till today, it shows
she made the right choice for herself but sometimes i really
wonder, does she still have feelings for me or its really, really
over?
i had countless relationships in the past but none ever made me
feel like this to her
i really want to be with her for the rest of my life and the
thought of this impossibility drives me to my knees
she's the only girl i ever kneel down to beg for forgiveness for
hurting her by breaking up with her, back then she just walked
away
sometimes i wonder, did she walk away because she didnt care
anymore or did she do that to make sure she hurt me to the deepest
so that i will get over her
i dunno...
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