Ah screw.
You are weak, you succumbed to your desire and did her
wrong.
Now you said you don’t want to confess because you fear losing
her, that is not love, that stems from selfishness.
Love is not posession, but that’s not the point here.
The point is that you did someone a wrong despite how you “love”
her, and you got no guts to confess your wrongs for fear of losing
her because you are SELFISH.
Weakling, just kill yourself and spare everyone in AA the
trouble please.