I have always thought of others before myself, quite sensitive
to other people's feelings, so much so that I would do abit of
self-sacrifice in order not to inconvenience others. I would try to
put others before me, its okay since I thought i wouldnt die giving
a little. I try to be the good man, prefering not to spread
rumours, backstab or even hatch malicious plots against people or
even my own enemies. I try to forgive my enemies, how foolish?
I do not even have the courage to step on a tiny poor ant as I
thought the ant has its own families too, killing it I thought, was
a grievous sin.
I always try to have the good guy image because I believe it was
right to do so after witnessing in movies that evil never triumphs
over good. Or does it?
That was once me.
Now no-action-talk-only colleagues gets the promotions, the boss
recognition. Selfish people gets all the spoils. People who hides
ulterior motives wins the battle. Enemies try to take you down
before you can even greet them. This is reality.
I am a catholic. All the above I have experienced with my eyes
have induced in me a feeling of "survival of the fittest". But that
somehow collides with my christianity beliefs where I'm supposed to
forgive my enemies, make peace, help others even at the expense of
myself. I guess it's time to change my mindset.
God favours the bold. It's okay to do a little bad if the
overall benefits exceeds the bad. It's okay to commit a little sin
if you want to protect yourself from being hurt. It's okay to break
the rules if everybody is doing the same, it is just that they dun
tell u and nobody knows it. It's okay to stand in the shadows and
strike before the enemies does, because its only a matter of time
before they take you down.
I'm not as benevolent as jesus who prayed for God to forgive his
enemies. I'm human, imperfect.
what are your views? As the saying goes, when a horse is
kind, people rides on it. When a person is kind, people
bullies him. Kingdoms and wars were won not by being
compassion, but by being merciless to the people opposing your
beliefs.
