I am 32 this year. He is 2 years old then me.
Maybe at that moment, i was so scared of losing him. So i
forgave him. And I thot of our kid. I can't be that selfish. I
don't want my girl to grow up in a broken family. Furthermore, I
have already tolerated him for so many years. I thot i can
just forgive and forget.
Then for the period, he was very good. Coming back on time,
bringing us out. So I thot he has make an effort to change. So when
he told me to try for another one, i agreed. I also wanted our
daughter to have another sibling.
But lately i found out he has been lying to me again. I was too
soft-hearted to forgive him. He knows my weak points. Or maybe he
thinks now with another bb, I wont leave him. So he wants the best
of both worlds.
That's why thinking of abortion, but don't have the courage to
do it. Since god gave it to me, I have to take good care of it. I
know some couples have tried very hard for a baby. But they still
dun have. I think it is fated...
Honestly, I don't have any trust in him now. At times when he
tells me things, I don't know to believe or not. I don't know is he
telling me the truth, or lying??
I dun noe how hard life is going to be, maybe I will just get
another part time job. Can still survive without him.
Elim20,
Start planning for your own future.
If he doesn't want to change.. there is nothing you can do.
Yes, some people stay in the marriage, because they see no
difference if they get a divorce.
They stay in the loveless marriage for the convenience. Since
the mother has no intention of marrying another man, and the
husband has a good reason not to commit into another lifetime
agreement with a new woman. It's a win win deal.
I can tell you are a very devoted mother, and your children are
the center of your life. So, channel your energy into raising your
children.
If you don't love him anymore, and since he is still paying and
keeping you and your children comfy, what have you got to lose
?
Don't let your anger get the betta of you.
If you let him go, he can happily go marry the other woman and
that's what she wants isn't it ?
If you know how to play your cards right, the world can be yours
to play with.