Please read and tell me what i should do, i am begging you
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Theres this girl, lets call her H. She and I went to the same
secondary school. We were in the same class for 2 years, different
for the last years. we're 17 years old this year, entering
poly.
i am pretty sure i had a crush on her at about sec 3.
now you would think that in a couple of months i would have
gotten over it, but jesus christ it's been about 3 years and i am
absolutely crazy about her . this girl is perfect in every way i
can think of, the way she talks, how she carries herself,
everything she does, i could type out a 10 paragraph wall of text
on how awesome she is but ill get to the point .
heres the thing, through secondary school life ive always
carried the the ' i dont care about boy-girl relationships and
other shit, i just want to play dota, and hang out with my guy
friends, drink beer, manly man' image. i dont know why i did , come
to think of it it was pretty retarded of me. absolutely no one knew
about my feelings, when i hung out with people all we talked about
was where to eat, what to play and other stuff like that, no one
knew me for a 'deep' person. holy shit i would even intentionally
keep my msn nicks simple , none of that 'my heart is burning
inside, no one knows how i feel' type of things.
When we hang out we are pretty normal around each other, we tell
jokes, talk etc, do normal stuff that normal people do when hanging
out. i dont think ive ever hinted to her anything at all, ive
mantained the 'i dont give a shit' image very well.
one problem is how different we are. She's the more chinese
speaking type, and im more of the english speaking type. We have
absolutely nothing in common, she likes anime and chinese/korean
drama, I watch mostly US sitcoms etc. I've known her for 4 years,
and ive never ever found a common topic between us.
The worst thing is that she
probably has the impression of me as just this guy that plays
games, sometimes hangs out with them etc. i'm not even in her
circle of close friends !! if she had a personal problem i would
probably be one of the last people she would turn to for help type
of person to her. she has no idea how i feel about her
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now that we are having our long o lvl break, she and I (and our
group of friends) hang out a couple of times a week . i feel
fucking terrible everytime i get home , i really cannot bear to
stop talking and being with her, she runs through my mind all the
time. im not very good with words so i probably cant put this in a
convincing way, nor are the examples i listed very good, but im
willing to bet that no one else likes her as much as i do , i
really believe so.
she's entering the same poly as me in april, couple of weeks
time, and to think that other guys are going to chat her up etc
just because she is pretty good looking makes me feel really really
bad .
i confided in one of my other female friends, but i did not
mention H's name. Please please help me out , i dont know what i
should do =/
me think career is more important than this leh k la what you
want you must go for it ASK!!!! ok find a good time have a good
chat with her tell her u have a crush with her and fall in love
with her then is up to her to say yes or no if yes move on if no
also move on .
ok most important be positive,often negative thought stop us
from acheiving the best outcome but it also good for some reason as
it were stop you do some terrible things you will regret for life
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