Jo, work keeps me busy. Time flies quickly. I date people from
time to time. I have no future with Mr G.
Even for those I have no liking for, the way I see it some are
more vacant than wistful. Others more wistful than vacant. People
come and go in my life, I'm hardly in search of new grounds in the
realm of romance.
I don't think it's the problem of finding a new man. The problem
could lie with myself? I have no idea. I cannot pin.
I have been very forthright as a person with him. I told him
this is headed nowhere. He asks me why. I tell him because he is
this strange person who'll never be mine. He says he feels exactly
the same way about me. I tell him it upsets me when he leaves. He
informs me when he leaves and now makes it a point of telling me
when he'll be back. But hey big fucking deal right? It feels as if
he's now reminding me when he'll be back so I can clear my schedule
in advance and make some space for him.
The cycle repeats. Whatever cycle it may be, on days like this I
think of it as a vicious cycle. And him, as a devious person.
Perhaps it is time, you give him some hope. Give him the assurance
he needs from you.
Instead of telling him that you see no future with him. Perhaps
you need a more optimistic approach to this relationship.
Instead of telling him it's doomsday, why not let him know you
see a thousand possibilities with him.
Offer him something he can hold on to.
He is a procrastinator.. and a procrastinator will not take the
bait unless he is very very.. absolutely sure it's gonna be a
secure long term investment.
Right now.. you're like a high risk investment.
On a lighter side, perhaps you can propose a long term plan.
Like get married and start a family with him.
I'd wonder how he's gonna react.....(chuckle)