Hi.
It is my first time in sgforums, so feeling abit blur on what to
do. ALso my first time posting on any forum...so hope that you
could pardon my posting if it seems not well written.
I am posting on here is because I am facing a big dilemma in my
lfe now. I am a guy, but I have been adopting a life of a girl for
the past 4 years.
I started wearing girls stuff at a very young age. It was only
until 2004 that I became more and more involved and serious about
crossdressing. I have spent easily at least 10k on female clothes,
lingerie and s*x toys.
The turning point in my life came in 2005, when I met a man from
IRC. He was the first man who I had intimate acts with, and he
taught me alot. He was married, so he eventually had to quit
meeting me. At that time, I felt very lost. He had become an
important person in my life. I was depressed for a few months
in fact. But as I recovered, I met other men and I soon was having
intimate acts with men I didnt know.
The thing is that, as time goes on, I get more and more
involved, and I know I have no way of turning back. However, my
family has no idea of what I am doing whatsoever. I stay with my
mum and sis, whereas my dad is in Hongkong for work. They have
no idea about my secret life.
However, I feel that I can no longer hide it from them. I find
it very tiring always having to pretend in front of them, and
always having to find excuses for going out. I have to hide all my
stuff, which again is very tiring. In fact, my family thinks I am
still attending school at a local university...but I actually
havent attended classes for almost 3 semesters.
I want to be truthful with them, but I am afraid they can't
accept it. But I really want to be free to lead my life. i know my
life now is rotten and shameless, but I don't see how I can go back
to being a good child to my parents.
I really do not know what to do...I want to tell and break free,
but I cant bear to hurt them...
What should I do?????