Actually I already made a decision. I already told him to stop
contacting me. So...... Now I'm a mess 
Thats the way to go! By telling him to stop contacting you, you
have burnt your bridges meaning that there is no turning back. Keep
at it and you'll be fine later.
You can pick up a sport, go shopping, call up your old friends,
etc. Wipe those tears, sit up and make a resolution to keep
yourself occupied. Try avoiding being alone; your mind may start
wandering back to him. Be strong ya.
