Today is just another CNY, i'm glad i'm back home after
receiving ang paos from my relatives. I have to admit I can't stand
them. They just either show off or show fake sympathy if you are
not up to par with them.
That's another case altogether...but what i'm upset about is
that, I can't seemed to click with anybody no matter how much I try
to smile at them & all. They just treat me like , "Oh, I am
just an introvert, looks quiet...it's ok, if you talk, we all will
be shocked!" Maybe because I had a bad childhood so most of them
knew abt it & maybe last time I wasn't really that .. how to
say...awaken or mature or even know what I was doing. Because of
that, I only had an O levels because I didn't knew the importance
of studying & now...even if I would to take up other courses,
it will be futile, because JC & a branded uni is of no match to
the majority.
Also, I have not been attached all my life & I yearn for a
partner to take care of me & me giving him all my heart. But it
seems impossible as I couldn't click with anybody that I tried to
be friendly with.
It's either they hate the way I talk (Which I think so, cause I
slur a lot or talks very lamely) or I looked uneasy, maybe because
of my bad childhood that shaped my deportment of today?
I am 20 years coming to 21 & I would like to desperately get
back my social life. It's really sad I am living in a shallow world
where people that succeeds gets the most choice.
U seems unable to click with the remaining, cos u have not
met a true person being not shallow and true of him/herself. The
environment u are in maybe a reason. Expand yr social circle. Seek
a better social cirle which may let u met the type of person u want
to met.
Example: Do u think u have a high chances of meeting a
homely and obedient gal in a pub/clubbing?
