Let me share with you...
For quite some time now, I have experienced what I can only
describe as non-existence. It’s difficult to explain how I feel,
although disconnected, numb and at times indifferent are the most
prevalent emotions/feelings. Being that I am presented with the
world; its sounds, its light, its touch and its smell, I know
somewhere along the line that I am at least presented with a
reality. However, I feel I can’t quite grasp it. It is there, yet I
don’t truly recognise nor empathise with it. In all honesty it is a
frightening feeling and one that sometimes deteriorates. As I write
this now I know that I’m here living and breathing but still
somehow not alive. It’s as if the vividness of life, of the world
has dissapeared with adolescence. I remember childhood being far
more real than even today, with my knowledge and understanding of
the world. I’m lost.
Is there anything I can do to start feeling again? I want to
feel alive again, whether or not it is an illusion.
You are ALWAYS not alone in this matter..dude..