Few years back.
Two guys entered my life at the same time. We were all from the
same secondary school and they knew each other. Lets call them X
& Y.
X attended to me via sms/msn. We chatted almost everyday,
talking about absolutely anything. He was the very caring type,
When I fall sick, he was there, telling me to drink more water,
rest well etcetc. Although we were very close, we never really
talked in school. Y was somehow like X. We chatted via sms/msn
everyday. He was there to cheer me up whenever I was sad and was
happy whenever I was happy. The only thing that differs was that we
went out a few times together. He paid for my expenses. Thus, we
were often mistaken as being a couple. Rumours started to go around
the school about me and Y being together when we were actually not.
Slowly, X and I drifted. Occasionally, I would initiate a
conversation with him on msn but we became, so stranger-like.
Frankly, I never thought of either one of them being my
boyfriend one day. I thought friends would come and go. But one
day, it eventually happened. One day, Y asked if I wanted to be his
girlfriend. And I agreed.
The next two years was probably the best phase of my life. We
were very loving in the beginning. Although there were up and
downs, we were back to being lovey-dovey again. During this period
of time, X found himself a gf and he practically disappeared from
my life. Sadly, things took a turn between my boy and I and we
eventually broke up three months ago. Its was over something that
was difficult to be solved, not because I didnt love him anymore or
vice versa. I still think of him everyday, and I really wish he
will be back by my side one day.
Then recently, X came back into my life again. He, apparently
has broken up with his gf. As we chatted on msn, I am reminded of
the good old times we had.
Sometimes, I feel like god has sent this guy to help me get over
my ex but sometimes, I feel otherwise. I dont know what to do. I am
afraid I will fall in love with him because he 'helped' me out of
this tough period. I feel like not contacting him anymore, but till
today, he and my ex are still the only people I trust. I wish my ex
can just return to me so everything will be settled.
I really need a breather from all these confusing matters.
Constructive comments please?
take things slow, do not make decisions when you are so confused
now though/ if u really need a breather, i would suggest going out
in groups rather than be with either one of them. just make friends
first. choose wisely.
