Originally posted by sEphIrOth:
As of my previous posts, I talked to everyone about my
situation but no one wants to realise my position. [b]I am posting
this in all seriousness about my feelings as I am helpless and I
wish to seek help here as the first option
My family fails to listen to me and my girlfriend does not want to
listen to my problem as she says she has work problems. My problem
of the limitation of freedom is so big that I feel I have lost a
mere sense of mutual respect from everyone around me. I am
beginning to feel that life continuing on like this has no
purpose.
I have evaluated my thoughts. I talked and discussed matters only
to be rebuked by my mother like this 'Anything you say, you will
think it is right so I have no comments because you only think of
yourself.' I am compromising yet she wants to be right. I have
thought of a plan rationally but she holds her ground. I am
helpless. Does it give her a permanent high to see me being
submissive? I want to stand up to my parents yet they make things
difficult.
I feel that my parents curb my potential. I have always thought
about a compromising plan so we both could be happy, if not, least
unhappy. However, everytime I try to be tactful, my plea gets
thrown out even without the slightest concern.
I feel suicidal because I cannot continue being oppressed by my
mother. My girlfriend has so many things to see to, she neglected
me. Trust me, if I told her how I feel, I would get a 'What is it
again now' type of look and she would tell me she is too
busy.
I feel that whatever I do cannot be achieved because my potential
is stunted by these 2 women of my life. I am truely troubled. Even
if I break up with my girlfriend, my mother will always be my
mother. Suicide has been my last option yet I have
exhausted other options My mother will dismiss everything
as a family affair if I seek professional help. I am helpless. I do
not want to wash the dirty linen in public too.
I am mentally tired and I do not wish to continue yet it breaks my
heart to end everything. Thinking back, I have nothing.[/b]
How REALLY BAD is your parent (mother) that is so damnable that
you find it hard to breathe? What is she restricting you from? Do
you think you have a CASE here for the police to solve? What is
LIMITATION of FREEDOM?? I think you really have a lot of problems
in yourself that you have overlooked and/or ignored right? Be
HONEST!!
And your g/f being the most understanding and supportive one in
your life has turn a deaf ear to your problems bcos of WORK? Is it
really bcos of WORK that she is unable to hear you out?
As much as you have said about not wanting to AIR the dirty linen
here, I do not think you have anything that is so unmentionable
here if it were to lead you to suicide.
You seem to say so much about your mother's misdeeds on you but my
logic is this "FOR EVERY CAUSE - THERE IS ALWAYS A REASON" So, I
think perhaps you should really examine yourself here as to what
really caused your mother to be like this TOWARDS you. Out of
curiosity, how did you get your banged up KNEE? I do not believe
that this storm arose without being stirred. For the basic of
parental love is that they will never "prey" on their own and
certainly will not put their own in harm's way.
You even complain of going out on holidays with your
family....preferring to be with friends rather>>!!! Hey, you
really have some kinda thinking??!! Let me ask you a question, who
do you think will be going to the grave first under normal living
conditions? Your mother or you? How much time do you think she has
here on mother earth? Do you think that she bore you out to
pressurize and undermine you? Boy that must be really expensive
compare it to ABORTING you and put you in a JAR? What's your idea
on the subject of filial piety? 
