This is the first woman i truly felt for at my age. Although
this is not my first time having an infatuation on a woman, it was
the first time i felt that i truly liked someone.
I never had experience with this kind of things, and now i am a
little confused.
There's this girl whom i met in SIM. We are doing the same BA and
currently is in the same class for 3 semester straight
already.
At first i didnt notice her, until i she needed help with her work
and i happened to be the one nearest to her. Our chats started
gradually, and its usually online chatting at first. From just
normal friendly chats to teasing each other and playing yahoo games
together. We can spend up to 4/5 hours playing games during weekend
nights, and although sometimes minimal conversation was exchanged,
i liked the company.
One thing i really could not comprehend was, our person to person
interaction was rather not "normal".
She would not look into my eyes when we speak. Sometime when she
past by me, she would give me a quick glance and then walk away.
When we have conversations, she would always end it with, "OK...."
"whatever...." etc etc...
I gave her flowers before, she sms-ed me immediately and told me
she love it and even took pictures of it and showed me on msn. I
bought her gifts when i saw some small nice items which i felt she
might like and she liked those too.
She would sms me things like "Hey i am bored..." and things as
such.
Even though we are in the same room, we would not speak to each
other sometimes.
I am a very quiet person and i could say i am pretty introverted. I
dont know if she finds it weird because, sometimes when i was
sitting at the cafeteria alone, when she walks past with one of her
good friend in sch, both of them would say "Hi" to me, but laugh as
though i've got something stuck on my face or something is wrong
with me.
Recently i just found out that a guy in class for a crush on her
too.
Coz once when i was walking with her to the train station (which is
real seldom), she say her friend and her friend mention the guy's
name and gave a cheeky smile.
The guy always sits near to her and chats alot with her.
Alright i've got to admit, that guy is a really extroverted guy and
strikes up conversation very easily.
I felt that i've lost, or i would soon.
I want to go further and would be willing to open myself up more
and do things like that, but i just cant comprehend her...
Hope the people here can give their views... thanks
