I was in a state of shock after that.. She was already the main
focus of my life.. Everything in my life revolved ard her.. After
that, she msg me abit and I wished her luck for her upcoming
quizzes. I missed her and would cry every night in bed. I didnt
expect that things will end so abruptly. We went on like this until
Sunday when she told me shes going to a guys house to watch a
soccer game. I asked her why she din mentioned the guy to me before
and she said hes juz a fren she known in sec sch. I was very upset
as I cant imaging her to be with a guy even though they are only
watching soccer.. I cried and she called me later saying that they
were in a group and there are other guys ard too but they are all
frens to her. She explained that the reasons that she wanna break
up; shes too young, she dont wanna me to wait for her in case she
hurts me (seriously even at that time, I cant accept the truth).
Finally, I made up my mind and wished her all the best for her
future.
But we would still sms each other .. I roughly accepted and was
trying to get on my life. Then she msg me the next sunday saying
that she juz wanted me to know that she missed me. I tot since she
had a quiz the next day, she would skipped her dinner again. So I
went to get dinner, snacks and herbal tea as she was complaining
shes unwell. I left the things outside her house and left. When I
was at the void deck, I called her saying that I brought her
dinner. She asked why I was there and since I was there, I should
go find her. We went to her living room to watch tv while she ate
her dinner. Then, she said she wanna study and lets go to her
bedroom where she could study. I was abit reluctant as I think I
should leave straight. But once she hugged me in her living room, I
told her that I missed her. We kissed and hugged later (nothing
more). She slept in my arms on her bed. Everything seems back to
normal. I asked her if we would have a chance to be together again.
She dont wanted to answer but I told her to say the truth. Either
theres chance or not. She replied thers chance but she dont
wanna promise.
We would then sms and talk abit on the phone after that sun.. Then
on wed, she told me she tink its really impossible between me and
her and shes sorry. She said shes a bitch for doing such things
to me. She appreciated everything that she did for me but she dont
wanted hurt me anymore. I told her to meet up again to clear things
up. The whole affair is dragging and its affecting both of us.
Later that nite, she said she felt theres nothing to talk. I got
upset and I scolded her for toying with my feelings, she wasnt
serious about out r/s, Im someone who does everything for her and
the moment Im not in school, Im dumped. She put down the
phone.
I made up my mind not to think of her anymore. Totally
disappointed. I spent more time at work and tried to look around
for some courses or volunteering work I can do since I have free
time on my own now. My frens and some of her frens also consoled me
saying that I will find a better gal next time. And I was actually
feeling much better than I was previously. Then she called me on
Sunday when I was out with my classmates saying that what I said
was totally wrong, she really loved me that time. I tot that Im
recovering but the call totally brought me back to the initial
stage. We ended our conversation saying that good luck to each
other and maybe we can meet on the next weekend as she wants to buy
clothes. I din called her after that even though I still miss her
but I was determined to stop it. She msn on Monday nite saying that
shes gonna fail her quiz and shes not gonna make it.. as usual, I
consoled her asking her to put in more effort and start her exam
revision earlier. Upon hearing her voice, I cant help but think of
our r/s again.. why everything turned out this way.
Then yesterday nite, she msn me saying that she is attached now.
Her new bf is the ******. I already guessed it could be him but I
cant help but felt that he is one of the reasons why we broke up.
Hes always there for her while I can only see her at nite. But
when I asked her if shes happier with him than when she was with
me and she said shes happier when shes with me.
I donno if I should be happy or sad. She was my first gf and I
really loved her.. Even though I knew that her heart isnt with me
anymore but I cannot accept it. Not especially when she got herself
a bf so soon.. is this normal? The things and the feelings I have
now? Are they all normal? Even her frens said that she was in the
wrong, one even scolded her. I was very closed to her frens as I
spent all my time with her and all her frens like me and said Im a
very nice guy and my ex was very fortunate to meet me. But its all
slant condolence to me now.. Im going crazy soon and there seems
to be no end to this prob.
Can anyone here please help? Please
