I also like that! 
It hurts ah ... When you see them playing together happily , and
you yourself is alone . Then u wanted to join in , they hesitate .
Then when you play , they never pass you the ball ( for example) at
all , then say you lousy.
Then during recess , they will ask me buy things aka shun bian buy
things . I wanted to say no , but under peer pressure , i gave in
and said yes . I know that im those blur type , and sometimes i
shortchanged the money. I ended up having to pay myself and got
scolded by the canteen auntie .
Then when one of them got birthday party , they seldom call me one
. During the party , they took a video of it as well . I think "
how i wished i was there as well".
Thats why sometimes i feel like having a girlfriend. Cause i can
love her and for her to love me in return . All i wanted is to feel
appreciated and in turn , love that person alot . Ofcuz if its a
guy , friendship love lah hor , not gay ! 
Girls are usually more soft hearted and understand
how plp feel , boys tend to ignore plp feelings . Thats why
sometimes with girls around , i feel more comfortable . Well ,
ofcuz with nice girls . Not ah lians . 
Cuz they understand how i feel on certain occasion. Then they will
like comfort you if you are down. But with my group of 'friends' ,
they will laugh and mock at me sometimes.
Then i got this fcuked up friend ( sorry to use that word) who
always disturb me . I kinda feel that he bullies me in a mild way .
Im utterly pissed off with him and sometimes i feel like pulling a
punch on him . But on second thoughts , beating him isn't the best
idea . But im really angry with him . Then now that i have a GF ,
he said this " Eh i love her alot leh ... I want fcuk her upside
down...." Feel like killing him literally. 
All that you and me wanted is to feel wanted and appreciated right?
For me , i wanted to feel loved as well . 
