What's the thing that you enjoy ?
Now, the things that you are doing now... the studies, the works,
the other activities... are they things that you enjoy, or somehow
related to what you enjoy?
Example,...
if you enjoy technology... the studies that you take, is it those
like math, physics, programming, etc.. OR.. those like economics,
languages, history, etc... ?
if you enjoy technology... the works that you are now doing related
to sales of technology stuffs, operating hi tech devices,... OR...
you are a cashier of supermarket, accountant of a firm, etc ?
See... Black or White of life... if you enjoy something and you are
not doing it, if most of your time is not related to the thing you
love,.. then it's a matter of time you will commit suicide because
you find that life is not worth living. Get up and start changing
your life to be what you like it to be.